“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

He knows how long you work at a painting before you are satisfied, and he felt that you might be hurt by my book, seemingly so effortlessly written. So he had to make it more difficult. Do you follow me?

You work mornings outside. He feels guilty that you do. He feels how you would enjoy and appreciate painting in the same way that my book is being presented, so spontaneously and quickly, comparatively speaking. He thinks this should be granted to you rather than to him, to make up for your job, and so he has felt somewhat guilty about it, and punished himself by holding off. He was afraid you would be jealous of the book, and hurt, and his panic was of your reaction.

(Already I am at work on Jane to disabuse her of any ideas like these. I could only be hurt by her feeling this way any longer.)

He long ago made a pact with himself, that he would not hurt you. Now, none of this material was known to him. It has all been beneath the surface. So when you said to him “use your abilities fully,” he was in a quandary, for to use them might be to hurt you in that particular manner.

She also feels that because he has been so busy he has been away from home more often, and because of his worries, less attentive. The symptoms also serve to say “Remember me. I need your care and attention also.” Quite simply, she is saying “I hurt because you hurt.”

She is saying “You are not only hurting yourself, but you are hurting me also.” Symbolically, the malady is expressing her attitude perfectly. She is strongly dependent upon the Jesuit, even while she appears, and is in many ways solitary and aggressive; and she is afraid that their intimate life might suffer if the acceleration of his work experience is continued, and if his attitude toward it does not change.