“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

Now neither of you know what difficulties are, in the terms with which most people speak. (A point with which I can disagree.) Now you are dealing, through your creative endeavors, aside even from the psychic work, with highly subjective material; many people are completely unaware for great periods of time of their own mental and emotional states. These are projected so automatically into physical activities that they are then faced and manipulated as physical events. The connection between the two is never realized. They are not ready as yet to handle their own subjective material or possibilities. Do you follow me here?

The creative personality encounters his own subjective states in a way that others simply do not. These states are then manipulated, often subjectively, sometimes consciously. Such personalities are in much more immediate connections with their own moods, feelings, the interior climate of their being at any given time.

He does have attitudes, as I told him last evening (mentally), that you had some ten years ago, setting up so strongly the idea of responsibility and lack of lifetime (physical time to live, etc.). That spontaneity became severely hampered. The brooding also involves your present situation, the two of you in it, and the future.

You rarely discussed together future plans. He took this to mean you had none. At times he simply wears his body out, and it requires additional rest, but he takes this as a sign of sloth and laziness. Some change within a stable framework is really your answer, with adequate and emotional communication.

(Jane had become very frightened a couple of days ago to realize she was becoming quite apathetic. Her legs, the knees especially, had been poor. Yet at the same time we had learned some valuable things on our own, especially over the weekend. I was very anxious that we get all the help we could.

(At the same time, I couldn’t help wondering just what human beings were, why they acted as they did, etc., and why the organism didn’t seem able to take better care of itself at least intuitively. Resume at 9:38.)

When he felt unwanted, this was also his reaction. Initially there would be no outward change of behavior except for a compensatory additional noisiness of faked gaiety and singing. For some time the organism could take this, and as situations changed the spontaneous self would once again emerge. With a changing physical situation necessitating agile manipulation, the physical stimulations came so quickly that the pattern did not have a chance to jell. It did not become a normal pattern of behavior, but one that was now and then adopted.

When you were ill the incident rearoused his fears concerning his mother, you see. As he had watched her very mood, he watched yours, and for a short time he interpreted your actions in a very accusing light toward himself.

Now. Together at least several times a week, for a month, read the sessions that Ruburt has on his clipboard. At least those portions outlined, together (underlined), as if you had not begun any of this before. Encourage Ruburt toward motion, and have him encourage himself the idea should be “I can do more, and more easily.”

There are small areas, quite trivial in comparison, that could serve as counterpoints. As mentioned, any changes within your framework at present that can be introduced. A project in which you can both become involved, that need not necessitate a great amount of time. Painting or furniture. Bright curtains at this windows—any beneficial changes in the environment of that nature.