“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

He does have attitudes, as I told him last evening (mentally), that you had some ten years ago, setting up so strongly the idea of responsibility and lack of lifetime (physical time to live, etc.). That spontaneity became severely hampered. The brooding also involves your present situation, the two of you in it, and the future.

The pattern had always included a strong tendency of withdrawal superimposed and enforced upon a very spontaneous self. As a child he closed off the expression of emotion from his mother out of fear, and when the fear element becomes strong as it did later for a different reason, with Walt, and much later for a far different reason with you, the pattern was reasserted.

When he felt unwanted, this was also his reaction. Initially there would be no outward change of behavior except for a compensatory additional noisiness of faked gaiety and singing. For some time the organism could take this, and as situations changed the spontaneous self would once again emerge. With a changing physical situation necessitating agile manipulation, the physical stimulations came so quickly that the pattern did not have a chance to jell. It did not become a normal pattern of behavior, but one that was now and then adopted.