“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

You both often lack perspective. When you compare yourselves with others you often do so in material terms. Often it seems to you that you have learned little, that your mental, psychic, spiritual and physical situation should be far better.

An honest acceptance of the feelings is paramount. They must be accepted as real on their own terms. Then the way is cleared for the cycle to move. Resulting inhibited energy is then released. Now in the past Ruburt would brood over the feelings, leading him into a physical apathy. He was ashamed of the feelings. Both of you however still overemphasize the entire situation.

You both have become somewhat ingrown. The basis, now, (underlined) of Ruburt’s situation is not largely (underlined) from the past.

He does have attitudes, as I told him last evening (mentally), that you had some ten years ago, setting up so strongly the idea of responsibility and lack of lifetime (physical time to live, etc.). That spontaneity became severely hampered. The brooding also involves your present situation, the two of you in it, and the future.

When he felt unwanted, this was also his reaction. Initially there would be no outward change of behavior except for a compensatory additional noisiness of faked gaiety and singing. For some time the organism could take this, and as situations changed the spontaneous self would once again emerge. With a changing physical situation necessitating agile manipulation, the physical stimulations came so quickly that the pattern did not have a chance to jell. It did not become a normal pattern of behavior, but one that was now and then adopted.

From that situation be could not or would not run, but in his mind he saw the two of you running free of all of them. He gave little expression to his feelings toward your mother, in a mad rush to get to the respectable and responsible attitude he thought he should have.