“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

You both often lack perspective. When you compare yourselves with others you often do so in material terms. Often it seems to you that you have learned little, that your mental, psychic, spiritual and physical situation should be far better.

Now he adjusted very well to these, but an inner portion of his self, you see, is thoroughly outraged, considering all parents enemies from whom one should and must legitimately run. Intellectually, he understood that changes had to be made in his attitude, and he tried to treat your family kindly, and consciously to make up to his mother by being nice to yours.

From that situation be could not or would not run, but in his mind he saw the two of you running free of all of them. He gave little expression to his feelings toward your mother, in a mad rush to get to the respectable and responsible attitude he thought he should have.

Now. Together at least several times a week, for a month, read the sessions that Ruburt has on his clipboard. At least those portions outlined, together (underlined), as if you had not begun any of this before. Encourage Ruburt toward motion, and have him encourage himself the idea should be “I can do more, and more easily.”

Some recommendations I will not give you now. They are in those sessions. Have Ruburt verbalize his fears in whatever way you choose. Feelings of hopelessness should also be verbalized. If they are not they pile up also. Improvements should be noted however. You should discuss plans in Ruburt’s terms with each other.

These recommendations will pay off. Understanding the pattern of behavior should allow Ruburt to take definite steps to alter it. He does not have to creep round the house to be quiet either, for example. Now take a moment and see what questions you have.

The feeling then seems to be out of all proportion to whatever current event seems to have evoked it. The personality is then bewildered, feeling the weight of this as a pall. Reassurance should be given then that the fears can be expressed, and not judged intellectually. Often when Ruburt is alone the weight of these unexpressed fears is strongly upon him, then acting like a cloud that holds him down.