“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

The “lovely young woman” phrase incidentally is an excellent one for him to use. (Jane was so addressed last night in ESP class by one of her students, a male.) He did idealize you in the early days of your relationship, and then made the transition that he mentioned. He was ignoring and hiding his fears to protect you as well as himself.

He felt threatened however then when you voiced your own fears. Looking at him, you can see that the condition, the problem, is a repressed one —the physical symptoms make this obvious. The repression of fears was latched onto for the reasons given in a recent session—the habitual syndrome—do you recall?

He also comes through as a young woman with some problems, with a repressive tendency that is physically materialized, with dogmatic and somewhat rigid distorted ideas that have only lately really been understood by the personality. I want him to read that, and I want you to know how he thinks when he is in error.

Many of these are perfectly normal fears. He felt it beneath him intellectually to speak of them to you, and felt that you would have no use for him, that you would think he was a cowering, spineless child rather than the independent brave spirit that he tried so hard to be for himself and you.

The cold does have an effect upon muscles however. It goes unnoticed when you are leaving your muscles alone. (Half humorously.) Now he thinks he should answer the phone every time it rings. And answer the door every time anyone knocks. He thinks he is afraid to have people see him in poor shape, and so does not want to answer the door. Actually it is his state of mind. He does not want to see anyone, period, often at such times. He does not have to want to see people at all times.

A consideration of his own feelings and attitudes in class will help him see what he does right then, and what negative thoughts and emotions are present at many other occasions. He acts to some degree also with positive aggressiveness in class. He is sure of himself. The positive aggression is important.

Great bursts of energy are available to him then, and he is not ambiguous about using it. Now that feeling of confidence is available to him at other times. He should try to remember the feeling and recapture it. He also on his own speaks loudly in class, and automatically accepts his own composure, status as teacher, and his abilities, without question.

He takes it for granted that he will be in good condition for class, regardless of how he has felt earlier, and the expectation is always correct. The lovely young woman image will also help fill him out.