“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

When he is in error he sees himself as an old hag, overly cautious with his psychic work, knocks himself over the head for not being freer about it, distrusts it, knocks himself over the head for distrusting it, fearful of emotional expression. Now you missed this fear of emotional expression on his part, because even with it he relates well usually with others. Particularly of course he was afraid of unpleasant emotional expression, or anger.

He learned restraint in this direction with his mother, and all kinds of automatic muscular tensions were then learned to inhibit the expression of fear of anger. So at his worst he feels powerless before it, and there are energy blockages here particularly.

On the other hand feelings create the physical state. Accumulated feelings of like nature will be expressed often, but not always, in repetitive fashion. It would be possible to go through Ruburt’s body and pinpoint the physical materialization of certain feelings as they are represented in a symptom.

Now in class you see he is expressive and expansive. He enjoys teaching. In class he is spontaneous. He is also thinking of others and how to help them, and he is definitely not concentrating upon his own symptoms.

He was afraid not only of his own emotions, but terrified of his mother’s emotions. He feels free to express emotion in class because he is in control of the class, and can also justify this, the use of emotion as a teaching aid. He can also give expression to a very deep concern about his fellow man, safely, since the family relationship is not involved.

Now when he was doing disguised autobiographical novels he released his fears through his writing. When the writing changed he buried them as completely as possible. He also stopped writing what he thought of as pessimistic poetry, which had performed the same function, allowing for the expression of fearful emotions. He used some of our material as an excuse to further shove his fears beneath, overexaggerating certain remarks that I had made. You follow me here.

Again, your sessions should allow for the expression and discussion of fears, the giving of comfort and assurance, but not involve emphasis upon fears, as in the two days… You do not need to take notes here….

(Seth then explained he was referring to the days immediately following the deleted session of January 18, 1971, when Jane expressed a lot of her fears, etc.)