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Now you have been good about exchanging ideas, the two of you, but not as spontaneous in the exchange of emotions. The remarks Ruburt made just before session are all pertinent.

Whenever possible finish up the discussion with at least a brief look at the underlined portions of the sessions on Ruburt’s clipboard. The intellectualization of the fears can be a trick to avoid facing their emotional reality, so beware of that.

When he is in error he sees himself as an old hag, overly cautious with his psychic work, knocks himself over the head for not being freer about it, distrusts it, knocks himself over the head for distrusting it, fearful of emotional expression. Now you missed this fear of emotional expression on his part, because even with it he relates well usually with others. Particularly of course he was afraid of unpleasant emotional expression, or anger.

So in the beginning particularly you may be the one to take the initiative at times, for he may be reluctant, you see—a symptom of the habit. The release of the fears then allows the body to release the natural optimism and healthy emotions that are needed, and the expansion of activity and energy.

He feels an inferior member of a family, but in a superior position as a teacher, and his fear of being anonymous in a group, or swept up by it, when he is not in control of it, results from these family feelings of a group, and fear of being swept along by emotion.

He was afraid not only of his own emotions, but terrified of his mother’s emotions. He feels free to express emotion in class because he is in control of the class, and can also justify this, the use of emotion as a teaching aid. He can also give expression to a very deep concern about his fellow man, safely, since the family relationship is not involved.

A consideration of his own feelings and attitudes in class will help him see what he does right then, and what negative thoughts and emotions are present at many other occasions. He acts to some degree also with positive aggressiveness in class. He is sure of himself. The positive aggression is important.

Now when he was doing disguised autobiographical novels he released his fears through his writing. When the writing changed he buried them as completely as possible. He also stopped writing what he thought of as pessimistic poetry, which had performed the same function, allowing for the expression of fearful emotions. He used some of our material as an excuse to further shove his fears beneath, overexaggerating certain remarks that I had made. You follow me here.

On different occasions the answers are different. Now he must emotionally find this out for himself. When he feels the reluctance however he should try to discover why and not ignore it, stay home and cower, or force himself to go out, denying the feelings that he has hidden. Do you see the difference?