“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(We returned home on Monday after a heavy snowstorm in Pennsylvania, and I did not return to work until Thursday. This session is prefaced with my notes of two pendulum sessions I held with myself. The first on Tuesday, February 9 concerns my shaky hand and my father. The second on the morning of Wednesday, February 10 concerns Jane’s condition and my part in it, etc. It was very productive. Suffice it to say here that Jane’s own pendulum agreed with it in toto, and we spent a good deal of time discussing it. By suppertime Jane was getting some strong emotional reactions to parts of it. [Loren, incidentally, is my younger brother.]

(This we did not know.) It was at the time of your illness that he began to conceal his feelings from you, and in a sense to coddle you. His overanxious behavior, its roots, have been given in other sessions. You follow me here.

Now we are dealing with his attitudes and feelings. I am leaving my comments out here, you understand. He wanted a car when you did not have one, but was furious that you got one in order to visit your parents—not to escape from them.

He feels trapped in this apartment, that he is here because he is readily accessible to help your mother, as when he was a child he was readily accessible to help his own mother. He has a strong, affectionate, open nature that was dealt some harm. (Long pause at 9:18.)

(Actually, I first began moving things to Sayre because we thought we would be moving from Elmira. I wanted as little surplus material here as possible, thinking it would be easier to take our time moving items from Sayre to the new location, wherever it might be.

(This led into the convenience idea. I suppose it’s not a good idea to keep the third carbon of this material there, either. Actually, I’ve begun slowly moving things back up here to store in the extra room upstairs, now that I have had the lock repaired. This will be continued until the job is done.)

He fears that you would find any real success of his highly distasteful. He fears that he might go hogwild with it. There is a connection here I have not quite discovered, in what I am about to say.

Clear emotional communication on your part will be most valuable here. On several occasions on your tour there was a name confusion, and this upset him for fear you would be hurt and put down. Do you follow me?

(“Yes.” Here Seth refers to my being called Mr. Roberts on occasion during the tour. Part of this was caused by an error on the jacket copy of The Seth Material. I can say that this bothered me not at all.)