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(Jane’s knees had been poor for some weeks. According to my own troubles, my pendulum insisted that I did not have a cold, even though I had all the symptoms. I came down with it after asking Seth last Monday, December 7, whether the taped session we’d made for the Claire TV show in Washington had been shown yet. My pendulum also told me that communication problems involving Jane, other than the TV show question, caused the “cold,” etc.

You will have to let me handle this in my own way—the matter of your symptoms and Ruburt’s knees, but for a starter we will begin with you. The pain in your side was a reaction against the first group of symptoms—they gave you a pain in the side. You were angry at yourself for not feeling well.

—hence again the question of communication. Do you follow me?

Beside this you thought sometimes that Ruburt thought of nothing but himself, and you were saying “Look at me, I am no superman,” and so actually you were looking for communications that it seemed you did not want in the early part of the cycle.

(9:32. Jane’s voice was soft throughout. She said her trance was good, yet she was aware of wanting a cigarette at the same time. She hasn’t been smoking as much when near me this past week because the smoke irritates. Now I wondered how it was possible for Jane to want a cigarette if her trance was so deep, etc. Resume at 9:45.)

(I had a brief coughing spell here, which of course hurt the side. This happened a few times during the first part of the session—usually at key bits of material. Finally Seth let me know in a good loud voice, that he hoped I noted the spots at which I coughed. I said I was aware of the connection, etc.)

(I had to laugh here. In one way, perhaps hard to describe, it is such a perfect observation on Seth’s part—the first sentence of the above paragraph. Jane, as Seth, watched me tolerantly. I had to watch the laughing because it hurt my side, etc.

(I agree with this data. I would add however that for me to be asked occasionally would not be a sign that I was emotionally far away. I expect to be asked, I suppose, when I do forget. I forget without attaching any significance to the forgetting.)

He still feels guilty about you going to work in the morning, and not getting up just rubs his nose in it further. He is saying “I may not have to go out to work like you do, but I am punishing myself for it, so do not blame me.”

(“Yes....” There followed a short exchange between Seth and me, after he asked if I had any questions. I mentioned the one I’d come up with the other day: what other names has he had in various lives? A list of the names would be interesting, I thought. Seth agreed. He now suggested I ask the question again later, saying the list would run several pages long. He then wished us goodnight in his usual manner, at 10:50.

(Jane agreed to make an effort to think of it this way. In any event, she got up with me rather easily this morning [Tuesday], and told me her knees felt better than they had in some time. It was obvious from her actions.)