“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

You take your artistic ability on trust. You consider it a part of you. Ruburt considers his writing a part of him. There are people highly gifted with artistic abilities, who have never trusted those abilities, did not consider them a part of themselves, and practically speaking have been unable to use them.

The life that you two personally have, has been brought about through trust and expectation. Your artistic endeavors are the result of trust and expectation. Now, only a comparative few operate in such a manner that their entire lives, in all areas, bring about the results they think they are after. The danger is in concentrating upon the lacks, the “sore spots,” building up greater concentrations of mistrust. In very important issues, both you and Ruburt are in excellent health. In every important manner, you personally are in the best of health.

So is Ruburt in all areas, except that one upon which he has concentrated negatively, and given up trust. I want you to realize that in very important ways, and even in the health area, you are both successful.

Ruburt has always taken it for granted that his organs functioned well, the living organs upon which survival is dependent. There were two areas that he did not quite trust. These were connected with the past, but only in so far as the distrust grew there. But the lack of trust is the important issue.

The mistrust of mobility, or fear that it could be taken away, was built up also, with other reasons given in the sessions, simply through the suggestion over the years of living with someone who was not mobile. The proximity alone. While Ruburt trusted the body then in all other areas, these two points represented holes in his armor, so to speak.

This is to lead up to Ruburt’s “as if” game. It is an excellent method. It will work if he follows it, through you must not look for results, in those terms, quickly.

Up to now you both have been playing the illness game strongly, in your imagination both creating symptoms, imprisoning Ruburt within them in the present, seeing them in the future, and examining future events in the light of present symptoms.

Ruburt’s enjoyment of the trees will lead you to an area of greater trees. His enjoyment of class money will lead to more. In any of these areas however concentration upon the lacks would reinforce these. I want you to see what you do right, so that you can apply it to these other areas.

In his “as if” game, have Ruburt imagine he is having his period, buying his Tampax. This is all he need do—not hammer the point. This and your satisfactory sexual relationship, now, will also help. He feels more now that you accept him as a woman. For a while he felt you did not.

Now. The “as if” game brings the picture of health into the present. Ruburt sees himself imaginatively as completely healthy and free now, which is something he has not been able to do. That is extremely important.

The idea of playfulness, and even of fun and ease, must be maintained. Ruburt must find the game fun, not resolutely pursue it. The “as if “ will automatically retrain muscular motion, and without effort.

The set and expectations will change. It is important that you try to play this with him, or know what he is doing, simply because you reinforce each other so strongly. So you play your own “as if” game with him. This will help. Do it in the same manner. As Ruburt knows from his reading today (Psycho-Cybernetics) when the dawn suddenly burst, any discouragements should be accepted as part of the learning process with which he is involved—and the failures, particularly of the past, forgotten. You should not remind him of them either, or concentrate upon them yourself.

If the “as if” game is played correctly the dressing habits will change automatically, again without stress. Ruburt fears humiliation. Acting as if he were perfectly healthy, such imagined humiliation would not be automatically projected. This is one area where both of you will have to watch, contrasting the game against immediate physical data.

Again, here particularly the game should not be carried out resolutely but with an idea of imaginative fun. There need be no decision on Ruburt’s part to wear short skirts all the time, for example. That would not be freedom either.

Spending money as Ruburt has been doing, and his freedom with his creative-writing money, will give him more. In this area, and in taking on greater rent, you act on the trust that more is available, and so it has been and will be.

Now. This release on Ruburt’s part will also release you both in other areas that have been inhibited. Open expressions of warmth are extremely important, on both of your parts in your daily life, and are also connected with your creativity as well as your health. This applies to you and to everyone.

Despite your feelings against this house, generated because of Mr. Spaziani, at least on one level, your love of it was picked up by your present landlady for several reasons having nothing to do with the house. She has great respect for your painting, and for Ruburt’s abilities, and you knew her when she was a soldier in Rome. It is for this reason that she painted the halls, and made the apartment adjustment. In this case the past overrode your negative ideas about the house when she bought it.

Now Ruburt was a priestess in that life—

—when you were in Rome, and did not know Sue. There was no great connection with you, except that you visited her once, and the two of you were both involved in what you may call the in quotes “mystery” religions. You were seeped in such lore, having been born in Greece rather than in Rome. Ruburt acted as an oracle, and you consulted her at one time.