“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

Ruburt has always taken it for granted that his organs functioned well, the living organs upon which survival is dependent. There were two areas that he did not quite trust. These were connected with the past, but only in so far as the distrust grew there. But the lack of trust is the important issue.

The set and expectations will change. It is important that you try to play this with him, or know what he is doing, simply because you reinforce each other so strongly. So you play your own “as if” game with him. This will help. Do it in the same manner. As Ruburt knows from his reading today (Psycho-Cybernetics) when the dawn suddenly burst, any discouragements should be accepted as part of the learning process with which he is involved—and the failures, particularly of the past, forgotten. You should not remind him of them either, or concentrate upon them yourself.

In the past he often used the image of himself, in his terms “before I got sick,” as a basis of comparison. Worse, he sometimes used the twenty-year-old physical self, which automatically led to some very negative attitudes, since he simply is not twenty.

He wants to be a healthy present self, not a healthy past self. A good deal of the weight problem is not a problem. You have both to some extent overexaggerated it. He can use more weight. The energy used in worrying about the condition has taken up the small leeway that would have given him weight. In the best of health he will not be a heavy person, for example.

It shows however a lack of freedom in a pivotal situation. I said pivotal because the dressing brings together both the idea of mobility and womanliness—both past areas of mistrust. The sexual area also combines both the lack of mobility and the womanly aspects, so freedom and the “as if” game in these areas is doubly important and vital.

Past feelings of abundance from other lives can help you ignite a current love of abundance and concentration upon it. When you, now, Joseph, find yourself enraged, or even just upset, about world conditions or the behavior of your fellow men, certainly admit your feelings and express them. Realize however that it is up to you in which areas of reality you concentrate.

Despite your feelings against this house, generated because of Mr. Spaziani, at least on one level, your love of it was picked up by your present landlady for several reasons having nothing to do with the house. She has great respect for your painting, and for Ruburt’s abilities, and you knew her when she was a soldier in Rome. It is for this reason that she painted the halls, and made the apartment adjustment. In this case the past overrode your negative ideas about the house when she bought it.