“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

Now. The healthy person takes health for granted. He takes it for granted as he does the air that he breathes. He can appreciate his health as he can appreciate the air, without feeling that either is going to be taken from him. He is not concerned with his health because he takes it on trust unthinkingly, as he takes his life on trust.

You take your artistic ability on trust. You consider it a part of you. Ruburt considers his writing a part of him. There are people highly gifted with artistic abilities, who have never trusted those abilities, did not consider them a part of themselves, and practically speaking have been unable to use them.

The abilities have always been present, however, latent as within each man health is there, though perhaps latent in the same way. The rich man thinks of wealth as a part of himself. He takes it for granted he has it and will achieve more. The poor man takes his poverty for granted, actually on trust, and takes it for granted he will have more of the same.

Ruburt has always taken it for granted that his organs functioned well, the living organs upon which survival is dependent. There were two areas that he did not quite trust. These were connected with the past, but only in so far as the distrust grew there. But the lack of trust is the important issue.

Later, with certain issues that arose between you, fairly well understood now, I think, he felt his womanly qualities a threat to you both, and the habit of mistrust became manifested in a suspension of monthly periods. We will give you some suggestions on this when I am finished.

The mistrust of mobility, or fear that it could be taken away, was built up also, with other reasons given in the sessions, simply through the suggestion over the years of living with someone who was not mobile. The proximity alone. While Ruburt trusted the body then in all other areas, these two points represented holes in his armor, so to speak.

Ruburt’s enjoyment of the trees will lead you to an area of greater trees. His enjoyment of class money will lead to more. In any of these areas however concentration upon the lacks would reinforce these. I want you to see what you do right, so that you can apply it to these other areas.

In his “as if” game, have Ruburt imagine he is having his period, buying his Tampax. This is all he need do—not hammer the point. This and your satisfactory sexual relationship, now, will also help. He feels more now that you accept him as a woman. For a while he felt you did not.

The set and expectations will change. It is important that you try to play this with him, or know what he is doing, simply because you reinforce each other so strongly. So you play your own “as if” game with him. This will help. Do it in the same manner. As Ruburt knows from his reading today (Psycho-Cybernetics) when the dawn suddenly burst, any discouragements should be accepted as part of the learning process with which he is involved—and the failures, particularly of the past, forgotten. You should not remind him of them either, or concentrate upon them yourself.

In the past he often used the image of himself, in his terms “before I got sick,” as a basis of comparison. Worse, he sometimes used the twenty-year-old physical self, which automatically led to some very negative attitudes, since he simply is not twenty.

When advance is seen in these other areas, the weight gain will be automatic. In seeing himself in his “as if” game, the healthy image should include ordinary weight, but without stress upon it.

Now certain habits should automatically drop away if the game is played correctly. He is not dressing with the freedom of an ordinary healthy good-looking young woman, for example, so he must dress for the role in his “as if” game. Healthy women do not dress to cover up their bodies, to hide their knees or their arms. They dress to show them off.

Spending money as Ruburt has been doing, and his freedom with his creative-writing money, will give him more. In this area, and in taking on greater rent, you act on the trust that more is available, and so it has been and will be.