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The nonphysical symptoms will also appear in various guises, often symbolically within the dream state long before any physical symptoms appear. Behind any kind of symptom, regardless of its nature, or the specific problem, there is usually a blocking off of spontaneity that is caused by fear. Either the individual no longer trusts the purpose toward which his energy is being expended, or perhaps worse, he feels that there is no reason, or that he has no purpose, and does not know in which direction to turn his energy.

Sitting down at the desk to write poetry, the act and intention automatically reminds Ruburt of all the times that he has written poetry before, and primes the pump, so to speak. When this is done, as it was this evening, easily, getting up and down from the floor does the same thing physically, reminding the body and the mind of successful performances in the past. With each success, the failures fade away. The same applies to running. Ruburt does not need his conscious mind to perform as a guardian. It is indeed the spontaneous self, as he is now realizing, who is the guardian.

Now. Tell him to leave his body alone with his conscious mind in the same way that he leaves a poem alone with his conscious mind when it is forming— to think of his body as a poem.

I have told him that concentration on his work will dissipate the rest of his symptoms, but he adopted a too-conscious (underlined) deliberation here. He should write his book the same way that he writes his poetry—not demand of himself, but simply and quietly and joyfully expect.

He learned, or relearned, something quite important this evening with the poetry—the feeling of spontaneity and creativity, and will be able to apply some of this now to the physical condition. A more playful attitude should be adopted when he gets up and down from the floor, and in the running. Have him see himself on the floor, for example, and get there without too much concentration upon the method or the muscles used, as this will take care of itself.

Contradictory feelings can also be expressed through the body, tell him. Remind him. Tell him also to shake his arms downward from both the elbow and the shoulder, and in a playful manner, as if he were a rag doll perhaps. His idea about the morning symptoms was correct—knowing this will minimize them.

He has actually been trying too hard on the dream book—his mental set. The spontaneous attitude of a joyful endeavor will release him here. His attitude has been “I have to start my dream book.” Tell him that his dream book will start itself if he leaves himself alone. The attitude has impeded his dream experiences also.

Tell him that he produces books as naturally as a tree produces leaves. He does not have to try so hard then. When he lets himself alone this happens naturally. Now this may sound redundant, but he has been listening to me rather well of late, and I know that there is significance even behind the obvious words I speak.

When he allows himself spontaneity his true vitality returns, and the feeling of joy, active joy, that he has so often missed. My word to him now then, for the 100th time—but now he will take it—is to allow himself spontaneity on a daily basis, the feeling of playfulness. A clue incidentally that his vitality is returning: he has not been nearly so tempted to nap, particularly in the afternoon.

Now. We hope to do more along those lines, for even though (smile) I am doing my own book, I will help Ruburt on his, and he could use a few projection episodes during sessions. (Humorous and emphatic.) It was also a way of getting him out of the way the other evening, so that I could work in peace on my book. It was rather a displacement of consciousness rather than a projection, for his consciousness was in a trance state, and then displaced to the bookcase area. (About six feet away.)

The hints on spontaneity that have been given this evening, again, may sound simple, but they are highly significant, and Ruburt will know when, subjectively, he is being spontaneous. At one time he could not tell the difference.

He is to forget thinking of the dream book as something he must do. It will come from him naturally. He has been using the idea of the contract as a club, and this is why he has been so sensitive about it. The contract is his as naturally as the book is his.

Now the energy that I am using now is also being made available for Ruburt (louder), and now he is no longer afraid to use it joyfully, and it will straighten out his arms and release some of the crooked ideas that he has in that head of his.