SESSION FIFTEEN

(During her mid-morning exercise-and-rest break today, I asked Jane if she had any idea why Seth had come through with the material he’d given us in last Monday evening’s session. At first she said no, rather matter-of-factly. Then: “Well, I don’t tell you everything, but for some time now I’ve known Seth gives what I call ‘fill-in’ sessions, or ‘floating material’— stuff he could give any time. It isn’t private, really, or book work either. They’re like ‘maintenance sessions.’ It’s good material, all right, but. …”

(“October 1/80. There are certain sessions I’ve labelled ‘fill-in’ sessions in my mind for some time now, or thought of them as covering ‘floating material.’ They aren’t book sessions or specifically personal ones. They keep the sessions going over periods of time. Like maintenance sessions, but usually by discussing past material — connecting it with the present [‘connective sessions’ is more like it] — while not necessarily adding new thrust. And not specifically given to one subject.

(“Originally the Christ sessions started that way.

(“I think such connective sessions happen between book sessions, for a change of pace — where material doesn’t have to fit a more concentrated overall book focus. 11:15 A.M.”

(Jane has grown increasingly restless over the breaks in her activities that are caused by the rest periods she’s taking several times daily. At the same time her back, for example, has improved considerably. She was angry as we sat for the session. “I’m so mad I can’t talk about it,” she said — while talking about it for some 20 minutes. I told her I knew she didn’t want to take the rest periods, and that I had little to offer as an alternative, beyond her simply cutting down on them. I figured she’d be altering her schedule. “Boy, Seth, you’d better bail me out,” she said vehemently. “I can’t have a session on it because I’m too involved — you have to calm down before you can do that. …”

You do not project as many negative ideas upon the evening hours, and the same applies to most people to varying degrees. That is at least one of the reasons why these sessions have been held in the evening, where it was at least not as likely that you would try to invest them with the workaday kind of world values.

It is up to you whether you want to call this a fill-in session or not —

(“No, that was it, about the fill-in session.”)

The sessions from the beginning were based upon the natural flow of Ruburt’s energy, taking advantage of it in such a fashion.

End of session — but those rhythms are also more natural to you than you have suspected. You often have freedoms, then, that you do not use — a 24-hour period that you use quite arbitrarily, one that is already sectioned for you by society — but only if you allow it to be. It can be used in any fashion that you wish.

(“Well” I said, somewhat defensively, “I’ve always enjoyed having the sessions at night, working after supper, and so forth.”)

(10:25 P.M. Jane had no idea “… what he was going to say, or anything.” And note that she did manage to have a session tonight about her own challenges, even though she was quite upset because of them at the same time. Her delivery had, in fact, often been fast and forceful.

(After the session I reminded Jane that she’d just given a terrific session — something that no one else could do — but that she didn’t give herself much credit for it. My remarks came about because as she sat on the couch after the session she said that she hadn’t done anything today “… but sleep and lay around. …”)