“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

Within your system, for the “first time”, in quotes, individualized consciousness is strongly-enough organized to do, in quotes, “good or evil.” Before that it was protected, somewhat coddled, with instinctual behavior holding it in bounds. It is not able to utilize enough energy to maintain a system of its own, but operates as an adjunct to other stronger systems.

Both Ruburt’s new experiments in class, and his affair with the hands represent growing receptivity and willingness on his part. In many ways the hand episode was the result of class work. Some of the experiments in class gave him confidence, and I gave him confidence and a challenge. The challenge was important. I appeared in class and he did not see me, and his friend did. And he knows why.

Therefore he made the inner decision. Before, he was afraid to see psychic events. Now this was no coincidence. He has poor eyes, because he did not want to see physical events. He did not use vision strongly as an aid, not strongly, say, comparatively speaking. He was poor in forming clear mental images, even as he was poor at seeing physical events.

Therefore with the development of the psychic experience he carried through in the same manner. It was a habit of perception. He did not want to see his mother clearly. He was frightened, hence the pattern developed. He suddenly realized that there was an advantage to be gained here, and he wanted to see immediately after his friend saw my image.

Now. (Pause.) The hand experience was legitimate. The visual impression objectified it for him. Before, he would not have allowed this. The difficulty will be one of circulation in the limbs and hands, and are already—the symptoms are already—felt by the woman in question.

(11:00. Jane had been “far-out,” she said. Seth could have continued indefinitely. “He’s got all kinds of energy.” But Jane was tired; the session ended rather abruptly. She remembered little of the material.)