“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(Jane wanted information from Seth about her struggle last night with what she believed to be a thought form she had created while sleeping. The experience had been somewhat frightening, and she was quite certain it was not a nightmare.

She projected this feeling to Ruburt also, particularly because Ruburt knew Don Wollheim. Fell was asking an exorbitant rate, she thought, for the first book; and Ruburt, she reasoned, would expect special privileges because of her contact with Wollheim, and so she got her back up and made sure no special privileges were given. In fact she bent over backward in the other direction.

There was something else. She resented the authoritative tone of the dream book as she first saw it, thinking again: “Now my God, this Jane Roberts imagines herself an authority.” Wollheim did not overstate what she told him. She never thought that Ruburt would revise the book. (Pause.)

Beside this, as you felt, there was a fear of Ruburt’s abilities. She is overly sensitive, feeling that psychics know more about her than she would wish, and this applies generally speaking, but particularly to women. This added to the other resentments. She does not like to speak to Ruburt on the phone, fearing the direct contact.

(9:25. Jane seemed to leave trance quickly, yet as it developed she did not really do so. She was quite sleepy at break, and said Seth was “putting her under” in order to talk about the thought-form and projection experience of last night with the least amount of distortion. Jane of course has a full account of the experience written down in her own records.

Our friend attempted to choose a different battleground last evening. He decided to think of his symptoms as an enemy, and to give them form in another plane of reality where he could do battle with them. Now this was not an astral plane, but a lower one.

I am referring of course to his “black thing” in quotes, and the struggle. The energy behind the thing was the energy of hidden fears, but such a thing could be formed by anyone, for there are fears in every man. Ruburt tried to isolate them, give them form, and fight them all at once.

The thing was actually then a rather clumsy lower-dimensional animal, a provoked dumb dog of other dimensions who then attacked him symbolically enough, by biting. Any “thing” in quotes so created entirely of fears, would be frightened, and particularly angry at its creator, and it could do nothing else but attack; in one way to protect what reality it had, for it knew Ruburt created it only to slay it if possible.

He attempted to separate from himself all those elements he considers negative, and fight them at once, almost as if in doing so he removed or could remove evil from the universe. This was the result of his tendency to regard reality in terms of absolute (underlined) values.

Now the evil which Ruburt imagined he was projecting outward does not exist, but because he believed it did, he formed his materialization from his fears. It was the shape of the desolation he had felt last weekend. Now in larger terms, and in the deepest sense, there is no evil, only your lack of perception, but I know this is difficult for you to accept. But this fact is Ruburt’s safeguard in his astral travels—as long as he remembers it.

Now Ruburt was attempting a legitimate projection, and the Grant book, in the overall, was good for him; but he got the idea for such a materialization by playing around unconsciously with an idea in the book. He thought of turning his symptoms, or the fears behind them, into a demon which he could then slay and conquer for good. (An autobiography by Joan Grant is referred to here.)

The earlier episode involving the man (the same evening), is something different. The man was dying. Ruburt entered him briefly. He was going to comfort him and help him readjust. Instead the man’s fears reminded Ruburt of his own, and he became sidetracked into the production of the other.

(Pause.) The man had a connection with Poughkeepsie (NY). I am not certain here. It was a man Ruburt knew in the past, and considered evil. This had something to do with his reaction, therefore. Do you follow me?

This will always protect him in any out of body endeavors, or any other unearthly realities. He was actually getting rather tricky, and the accomplishment, while misguided, shows the growth of his abilities. Now had he been in severe difficulties someone would, have helped him. He has many friends, but it was best that he followed through on his own for his own confidence.

(10:10. It was hard for Jane to open her eyes. As before, she did not leave the trance state completely; she was very sleepy and quiet, but when the session resumed her manner was once again quite active and energetic, eyes open often, voice good, pace rather fast, etc. Resume at 10:15.)

The rigidity was in his mind however and not in yours, and he knows this now. Give us a moment. (Pause.) You are to him in this existence a figure for lover, father and child, but he is also a figure to you of mother, mistress and child. And all of this energy in both of your cases unconsciously understood, is then at its best, joyfully bound together and projected into your works.

(For the last couple of pages it had been quite noticeable to me that Seth was anticipating my questions and then answering them. This can’t be demonstrated of course, but my feeling was apparent subjectively.)

(10:42. Jane came out rather quickly, but was still very sleepy and relaxed. “He’s being real affectionate and sweet... and I don’t know if I’ll ever make it to the bedroom,” she said. “He could have gone on and on.”)