“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

We are going to hedge about for a moment, until Ruburt’s state is such that he is completely unconcerned.

In the meantime I will tell you about your Miss Grippo (the editor in question at Ace), and the name is an apt one. She did enjoy Ruburt’s first book, but is very angry that Fell held out financially, thinking then: “Who does Fell think Jane Roberts is? Why does he think we would pay so much when the name is unknown? He,” meaning Fell, “is out to bleed us.”

She projected this feeling to Ruburt also, particularly because Ruburt knew Don Wollheim. Fell was asking an exorbitant rate, she thought, for the first book; and Ruburt, she reasoned, would expect special privileges because of her contact with Wollheim, and so she got her back up and made sure no special privileges were given. In fact she bent over backward in the other direction.

There was something else. She resented the authoritative tone of the dream book as she first saw it, thinking again: “Now my God, this Jane Roberts imagines herself an authority.” Wollheim did not overstate what she told him. She never thought that Ruburt would revise the book. (Pause.)

Beside this, as you felt, there was a fear of Ruburt’s abilities. She is overly sensitive, feeling that psychics know more about her than she would wish, and this applies generally speaking, but particularly to women. This added to the other resentments. She does not like to speak to Ruburt on the phone, fearing the direct contact.

There does seem to be some involvement with Ruburt and that house however, in the future. Wollheim is rather afraid of Grippo.

Ruburt may study astrology, but he will not feel easy with it. He does not need it. As a matter of interest it is perfectly all right, but because of his particular nature he will have a tendency to let the charts impede rather than help his clairvoyant information.

Ruburt could involve himself however needlessly. His abilities will follow a different line entirely, though there is no harm in his study. The difficulty would lie in the drain upon his time, for people would want readings: and again, look for miracles rather than self-understanding and self-development.

I am referring of course to his “black thing” in quotes, and the struggle. The energy behind the thing was the energy of hidden fears, but such a thing could be formed by anyone, for there are fears in every man. Ruburt tried to isolate them, give them form, and fight them all at once.

The thing was actually then a rather clumsy lower-dimensional animal, a provoked dumb dog of other dimensions who then attacked him symbolically enough, by biting. Any “thing” in quotes so created entirely of fears, would be frightened, and particularly angry at its creator, and it could do nothing else but attack; in one way to protect what reality it had, for it knew Ruburt created it only to slay it if possible.

It did have a reality therefore. Ruburt leapt back to his body to safety and normal consciousness. The thing therefore dissipated, for when Ruburt ran home he automatically withdrew his energy from it. Give us a moment. (Pause.)

Now the evil which Ruburt imagined he was projecting outward does not exist, but because he believed it did, he formed his materialization from his fears. It was the shape of the desolation he had felt last weekend. Now in larger terms, and in the deepest sense, there is no evil, only your lack of perception, but I know this is difficult for you to accept. But this fact is Ruburt’s safeguard in his astral travels—as long as he remembers it.

Now Ruburt was attempting a legitimate projection, and the Grant book, in the overall, was good for him; but he got the idea for such a materialization by playing around unconsciously with an idea in the book. He thought of turning his symptoms, or the fears behind them, into a demon which he could then slay and conquer for good. (An autobiography by Joan Grant is referred to here.)

The suggestions he gave himself as to healing, you see, were connected here. He formed a poor creature with the purpose of destroying it. The symptoms were worse following the episode because of the impact with which the creature’s energies were withdrawn and then reabsorbed. They had been already isolated from other aspects of Ruburt’s personality, so the fears flew back in with an explosive impact.

The earlier episode involving the man (the same evening), is something different. The man was dying. Ruburt entered him briefly. He was going to comfort him and help him readjust. Instead the man’s fears reminded Ruburt of his own, and he became sidetracked into the production of the other.

(Pause.) The man had a connection with Poughkeepsie (NY). I am not certain here. It was a man Ruburt knew in the past, and considered evil. This had something to do with his reaction, therefore. Do you follow me?

The man may have been Ruburt’s Father Doren. If not there is quite a psychological connection between the man who died and this Father Doren in Ruburt’s mind.

Give me a moment. (Pause.) Now it will help if you take it for granted that under some circumstances—and underline some—dealing with Ruburt’s idea of authority, he has difficulty expressing dissatisfaction, or expressing any normal impatience.

I have mentioned before that the two of you have been highly involved in the past, and that your combined efforts aid in the sessions. You do not have to feel that you have forced Ruburt where he does not want to go, even inadvertently. He does need and thrive upon your support. Without it he would have chosen other pathways perhaps, but they would not have been as beneficial nor as helpful to both of your developments.

You have chosen to divert and use tremendous charges of energy in your final reincarnations, and your own art will make its way for this reason. (To me.) What seems to you as inner difficulties or problems, or lack of success, like Ruburt’s desolations, serve as the very impetus to development.

As far as the information concerning Ruburt’s symptoms, I have this to say. (See page 272 of the 470th session, March 26, 1969.) He must be open about them, and they will vanish. I do not mean (be) pessimistic about them. When he attempts to hide them from you he builds up the mood that they so dismay you. He takes an aspirin behind your back as if he were a secret alcoholic because he fears that you would be annoyed. Then this builds up within him the feeling that he is alone, and the mood builds up to which you then react.

We will then close the session. My heartiest regards to you both. Have Ruburt read this session several times.