“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

Beside this, as you felt, there was a fear of Ruburt’s abilities. She is overly sensitive, feeling that psychics know more about her than she would wish, and this applies generally speaking, but particularly to women. This added to the other resentments. She does not like to speak to Ruburt on the phone, fearing the direct contact.

I am referring of course to his “black thing” in quotes, and the struggle. The energy behind the thing was the energy of hidden fears, but such a thing could be formed by anyone, for there are fears in every man. Ruburt tried to isolate them, give them form, and fight them all at once.

The thing was actually then a rather clumsy lower-dimensional animal, a provoked dumb dog of other dimensions who then attacked him symbolically enough, by biting. Any “thing” in quotes so created entirely of fears, would be frightened, and particularly angry at its creator, and it could do nothing else but attack; in one way to protect what reality it had, for it knew Ruburt created it only to slay it if possible.

He attempted to destroy the animal of evil, and it bit him back. Now evil does not exist in those terms, and even illness or fear is not necessarily an enemy, as much as an aid to understanding and the means to a greater end.

Now the evil which Ruburt imagined he was projecting outward does not exist, but because he believed it did, he formed his materialization from his fears. It was the shape of the desolation he had felt last weekend. Now in larger terms, and in the deepest sense, there is no evil, only your lack of perception, but I know this is difficult for you to accept. But this fact is Ruburt’s safeguard in his astral travels—as long as he remembers it.

The words: “May peace be with you,” will get him through any difficulty in other layers of reality, for as he formed that image others also form images, and he could encounter them on occasion. To wish them peace will be to give them some comfort, for they do have a kind of reality. To fear them is to put yourself into their realm of reality, and then you are forced to fight on those terms, and there is no need for this.

Now Ruburt was attempting a legitimate projection, and the Grant book, in the overall, was good for him; but he got the idea for such a materialization by playing around unconsciously with an idea in the book. He thought of turning his symptoms, or the fears behind them, into a demon which he could then slay and conquer for good. (An autobiography by Joan Grant is referred to here.)

The suggestions he gave himself as to healing, you see, were connected here. He formed a poor creature with the purpose of destroying it. The symptoms were worse following the episode because of the impact with which the creature’s energies were withdrawn and then reabsorbed. They had been already isolated from other aspects of Ruburt’s personality, so the fears flew back in with an explosive impact.

The earlier episode involving the man (the same evening), is something different. The man was dying. Ruburt entered him briefly. He was going to comfort him and help him readjust. Instead the man’s fears reminded Ruburt of his own, and he became sidetracked into the production of the other.

I know you realize this. It would help however if you simply remind him of this when such occasions arise, for your reminder, given without rancor, would be enough now to let him make a suitable adjustment at any given occasion. You need not force an issue, but remind him of the fact. You fear over-influencing him, but since your influence is considerable in any case, this is a good time to use it.

As far as the information concerning Ruburt’s symptoms, I have this to say. (See page 272 of the 470th session, March 26, 1969.) He must be open about them, and they will vanish. I do not mean (be) pessimistic about them. When he attempts to hide them from you he builds up the mood that they so dismay you. He takes an aspirin behind your back as if he were a secret alcoholic because he fears that you would be annoyed. Then this builds up within him the feeling that he is alone, and the mood builds up to which you then react.