“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

He was still afraid to accept it. He did not know whether he dared yet trust his spontaneity, and imposed upon himself symptoms as limitations.

Subjective freedoms may seem slow to appear on Ruburt’s part. There is however an inner rhythm that is not apparent. In his last trial he faced and is conquering many important issues, and it was better in the long run that they be fought and won during one period rather than stretched out. It has been a compressed period of high activity, with the inner attitudes clearly (underlined), concisely and quickly made visible in the physical form. The learning process was far more effective in this manner—the symptoms serving as immediate checkpoints. He has learned therefore to look within for the reasons as soon as symptoms appeared or reappeared.

One point: your friend the Jesuit (Bill Gallagher)—his symptom is hidden within his tissue, and not physically observable. Its buried nature, the ulcer being hidden, is an added indication that he does not want to face his problem. Ruburt chose more observable symptoms. He was more determined to discover the reasons for his problems, and the learning process is much faster. The kind of symptom and its observability is often a clue as to the problem and to the individual’s attitude toward it.