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Ruburt’s attitude is his own. I have not imposed it upon him. He reacted last month when he had an experience of release and joy.

Now my humor and my sense of joy are obvious. I would hardly then impose responsibility as opposed to joy upon Ruburt. It took him some time to accept the fact of the sessions, and when he did so nothing would do but that he overdo, and accept them as a task rather than a joyful creative endeavor.

You have both greatly changed as a result of the sessions. Intuitively and creatively new avenues will be opened to you. There is no either/or situation however. Ruburt need not think in terms of grim responsibility. (Pause.) And now he will not. This evening for several reasons his thoughts became clear on these subjects. And the point, buried somewhat in the past, came to light of consciousness, for within intuitively the necessary connections had already been made.

Subjective freedoms may seem slow to appear on Ruburt’s part. There is however an inner rhythm that is not apparent. In his last trial he faced and is conquering many important issues, and it was better in the long run that they be fought and won during one period rather than stretched out. It has been a compressed period of high activity, with the inner attitudes clearly (underlined), concisely and quickly made visible in the physical form. The learning process was far more effective in this manner—the symptoms serving as immediate checkpoints. He has learned therefore to look within for the reasons as soon as symptoms appeared or reappeared.

One point: your friend the Jesuit (Bill Gallagher)—his symptom is hidden within his tissue, and not physically observable. Its buried nature, the ulcer being hidden, is an added indication that he does not want to face his problem. Ruburt chose more observable symptoms. He was more determined to discover the reasons for his problems, and the learning process is much faster. The kind of symptom and its observability is often a clue as to the problem and to the individual’s attitude toward it.

We will end the session. I wanted to make clear the fact that illness can be a method of learning (long pause), and to tell you that Ruburt’s subjective feelings this evening were legitimate. New freedoms will follow. Intuitively you also provided clues that he needed this evening, but he was also ready to put them together.