“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

Ruburt’s attitude is his own. I have not imposed it upon him. He reacted last month when he had an experience of release and joy.

He was still afraid to accept it. He did not know whether he dared yet trust his spontaneity, and imposed upon himself symptoms as limitations.

Now my humor and my sense of joy are obvious. I would hardly then impose responsibility as opposed to joy upon Ruburt. It took him some time to accept the fact of the sessions, and when he did so nothing would do but that he overdo, and accept them as a task rather than a joyful creative endeavor.

This resulted in uneven attitudes. I know him, and hence I have suggested the periods mentioned in our last session, with weeks set aside for sessions, and time off from them. He knew he was free to take time off at any time, but he was afraid that if he did so he might be deprived of the sessions entirely, and such is not the case.

You have both greatly changed as a result of the sessions. Intuitively and creatively new avenues will be opened to you. There is no either/or situation however. Ruburt need not think in terms of grim responsibility. (Pause.) And now he will not. This evening for several reasons his thoughts became clear on these subjects. And the point, buried somewhat in the past, came to light of consciousness, for within intuitively the necessary connections had already been made.

Subjective freedoms may seem slow to appear on Ruburt’s part. There is however an inner rhythm that is not apparent. In his last trial he faced and is conquering many important issues, and it was better in the long run that they be fought and won during one period rather than stretched out. It has been a compressed period of high activity, with the inner attitudes clearly (underlined), concisely and quickly made visible in the physical form. The learning process was far more effective in this manner—the symptoms serving as immediate checkpoints. He has learned therefore to look within for the reasons as soon as symptoms appeared or reappeared.

Tell our friend however that when he is light-hearted he is light-limbed and moves lightly. Responsibility, in a certain sense, always got his back up.

He has been able to see for himself how inner heaviness of spirit is instantly reflected in his physical condition. He knows this. He is now free enough so that the spontaneous method of working on our book came to him, and he began working upon it in that manner today.

It is no coincidence that he also began working upon a novel idea, and no coincidence that further insights appeared to him this evening, and that the physical organism was almost immediately relieved. The changing of the room is also symbolic, and beneficially so.

He is not so frightened of others now that he must shield himself from them the moment he opens the door. On the other hand the moving of the bookcase to divide the work area showed even before his novel idea that his spontaneity was emerging fully within his work again, and that the work area was therefore to be separated from social activities.

At the same time in his mind, the work area was enlarged, since before he considered it to be composed psychically of his table area alone. It has been extended therefore, you see.

One point: your friend the Jesuit (Bill Gallagher)—his symptom is hidden within his tissue, and not physically observable. Its buried nature, the ulcer being hidden, is an added indication that he does not want to face his problem. Ruburt chose more observable symptoms. He was more determined to discover the reasons for his problems, and the learning process is much faster. The kind of symptom and its observability is often a clue as to the problem and to the individual’s attitude toward it.

We will end the session. I wanted to make clear the fact that illness can be a method of learning (long pause), and to tell you that Ruburt’s subjective feelings this evening were legitimate. New freedoms will follow. Intuitively you also provided clues that he needed this evening, but he was also ready to put them together.

The sense of fun and joy and spontaneity—all of these things are as important in the dreaming as in the waking state. He felt a responsibility, in his terms, to be psychic. Therefore he carried this attitude into the dream state, and rebelled against the idea of working while he slept. (Pause.) It is no more his duty to be psychic than it is his duty to be human, or creative. It is simply his nature. For some time therefore he curtailed his own dream activities, projections and other such adventures. He could hardly negate them entirely however.

On that particular evening I was in the room. He and I had been discussing his development. He was in a dream state, and in the dream I appeared to him in the form of a pyramid of lights. We were communicating telepathically.

The form was generally a figure. The pyramid for example could have been a robe, though no robe was present. The lights were my thoughts (pause), in their electromagnetic form. Yet the form of the pyramid represented in other areas the three of us. The form had its own meaning therefore. The form did not disappear when he awakened. He simply switched to physical sight mechanisms that did not perceive it. The freedom of his dream activity will now return. (Long pause.)

I often appear in his dreams as a form or symbol, for he accepts me more readily. I often appear in such a manner in your own dreams, but as various people. Do you have further questions?