“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(She said it began when she tried psy-time this morning a short while after 9 AM. It culminated in a massive feeling of smiling relaxation, she said, combined with a strong experience of relief. It was as though she had passed through some great experience in triumph, she said, and would not be called upon to repeat it—all the travail, etc., involved.

If the impetus on your parts is not that strong, or if fear operates, if Ruburt is afraid for example, of being put to a “test”, in quotes, then of course the proper stimulus is not present. The best time to get information is when it is mentioned initially. This does not mean that further information cannot be given. It is simply not as easy to obtain. Ruburt’s own change of attitude will be of great benefit to us from here on however, and such incidents will diminish.

I used the term (ego) often myself for your convenience, and I use it now for the same reason. I believe that I will tell you this for your definition: the ego is the portion of identity that is presently focused within an apparent now—that is, it is primarily designed as a mental tool, focusing within time as it is known and experienced by physical creatures.

At times you become jealous of your energies. You fear that direct psychic experience in terms of projections could rob you of the energy you should put into your painting and quite unconsciously, though not entirely, when you are focusing upon your painting strongly with particular inner vigor, then you close the door to personal psychic adventures out of a misplaced jealousy for your art.

(“No, not at this time. I think it’s very good.”)

(9:42. Jane was easily out of trance. Once, she said, she felt that she was growing “smaller” as she sat in her rocker while Seth spoke. She felt that she was an old man, little, tiny... at the same time as Jane she knew she wasn’t shrinking but that it was a subjective experience. Seth kept on talking, and the feeling passed.

(Sometimes when I make notes I don’t have enough time to consider the material being received. Now is a case in point. I somewhat misinterpreted what Seth had said concerning projections. I commented aloud to Jane about how I thought that I had been using my psychic abilities in my paintings, quite consciously and deliberately as a most welcome aid.

For some time he has identified himself with the dream book, and projected his own problems upon it so that it bore the brunt, so to speak; and if it was a failure, then he was a failure and in very definite terms.

For that matter the book has changed you see from what it was, as he has changed from what he was. He also knows that the book will be published, and this inner information has been given to him in one way or another time and time again.

(Jane has a long list of dreams, psy-time experiences, messages from Seth and herself, to the effect that the dream book will be published.)

He will hear of its publication soon. That is, within a short time he will know physically that it will be published. (Pause; smile.)He will be working on it through some stages of the Seth material, also. (Pause.) Wollheim will be involved in it. With it. It will be an ace of a book. (Smile, eyes closed.