“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(Pause at 9:30. Seth now spoke about some remarks I had made earlier today, concerning my poor success in remembering my dreams and projections over a period of months now.)

At times you become jealous of your energies. You fear that direct psychic experience in terms of projections could rob you of the energy you should put into your painting and quite unconsciously, though not entirely, when you are focusing upon your painting strongly with particular inner vigor, then you close the door to personal psychic adventures out of a misplaced jealousy for your art.

Now you project in your sleep whether or not you know it. But this feeling of jealousy prevents you from using consciously what you have gained. Unconsciously of course the experience does sift through, and like any other experience you use it in your work. But you could use more.

(Sometimes when I make notes I don’t have enough time to consider the material being received. Now is a case in point. I somewhat misinterpreted what Seth had said concerning projections. I commented aloud to Jane about how I thought that I had been using my psychic abilities in my paintings, quite consciously and deliberately as a most welcome aid.

I was speaking of psychic endeavors involving projection. Endeavors which you felt involved a greater production or use, rather, of energy. You have been much freer in opening of channels, and passively receiving and becoming receptive to inner information and experience.

You felt that actively going out however, in terms of a projection involved a greater effort and energy, and this particular aspect you had not tied into your art. You may continue with your break.

For some time he has identified himself with the dream book, and projected his own problems upon it so that it bore the brunt, so to speak; and if it was a failure, then he was a failure and in very definite terms.

He has freed the book also from the negative ideas that he had earlier projected upon it, ideas which were picked up by those who read it. (Pause.) We will see if we can get around him. Now. (Pause.)