“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(As is often the case Jane had no idea of what material would be dealt with this evening. Sue told us she had no specific questions. Jane began speaking in trance at quite a fast pace, eyes open often, etc.)

A certain portion of my reality is therefore available to you during our appointed times, and the bridgework of which we have spoken is always available; and using it Ruburt can call upon me on other occasions.

The teacher transforms the TV screen until the TV screen becomes momentarily the teacher. Now it makes little difference, you see, when the transformation is worked, in your terms, or what dials are turned, or whether or not I as myself am at this moment within Ruburt speaking in your terms, or whether I did this (meaning this session, being delivered by Jane now) last evening in your terms, and tonight is a film or playback.

For again, the medium is the message in the spacious present, and when- ever the time for the program arrives I am here in your present, regardless of where I am in what you would term my present.

Again, this does not imply that such a session is less legitimate than others. It simply means that I use what you would call time in a different way than you.

I use certain facets of my personality, for they are helpful as a teacher. You know all of me that you are able to know, at any given time in your terms. (Pause.) It would be relatively (underlined)but certainly practically impossible, for me to make my full reality clear to you, now, in our sessions, for your understanding would not contain it.

He was taking you to a concert. I do not know now, or see now, what initiated your reaction, but something happened that frightened you. You yelled at the horses and screamed. Your uncle fell. The horses panicked, and [he] fell beneath a hoof. You never forgave yourself, and now in your first reincarnation as a woman since that time, you decided to be the vehicle through which he could enter physical reality again, and so became his mother in physical terms.

This was the extent of what you felt to be your responsibility.

Now. While the inner self is aware of this connection, the present self has been fooling itself to some degree, for it did not accept the intuitional knowledge. Regardless of what you thought consciously therefore, you still inwardly blamed yourself for letting the child go, and therefore the difficulty with the womanly organs.

You blamed yourself for financial reasons, though consciously this would be the last thing to come to your mind. You think of yourself quite free of financial conditions, and as an adult now in independent terms set yourself free of your parents. But subconsciously you wondered what social environment your child would really (underlined) encounter, and whether or not you deprived him of the social and economic benefits that you have convinced yourself, consciously, you do not need.

You used to wonder what there was about her that so captivated your father, since he had an obvious preference for her, and you would watch her secretly, trying to find the answer. You disliked her heartily but the fascination kept at you, so that you studied her mannerisms, and even at times tried to copy them.