“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

My entire essence however need not always be involved. (Pause.) I need not be entirely focused within your dimension in other words, but I am focused sufficiently to meet our appointments.

(Jane now began to gesture with her hands and arms.) It is as if there were two portions of a bridge, like a toll bridge or a drawbridge, and these two portions you see must meet. When you wish to contact me at other than appointed times, I may or may not be easily (underlined) available. Your own emotional need and impetus will however be made known to me. Therefore if that need is strong I would of course be here, even as you would not disregard the need of a friend. I am not automatically available however any more than you are.

You blamed yourself for financial reasons, though consciously this would be the last thing to come to your mind. You think of yourself quite free of financial conditions, and as an adult now in independent terms set yourself free of your parents. But subconsciously you wondered what social environment your child would really (underlined) encounter, and whether or not you deprived him of the social and economic benefits that you have convinced yourself, consciously, you do not need.

Now these are things, some of the things, that you do not want to face consciously. Your uncle did not blame you for the accident at the time. While there was a past family connection, you were not the closest of friends, and there was no need or desire on either of your parts for a family connection of any duration in this life.

There is in other words no need for you to punish the organs of your body that were involved in that birth.

You felt that you wanted to give a life for the one you accidentally destroyed, but it need not have been the life of the same personality, had you chosen otherwise. You also still remember that the father of your child was a woman, and your sister, and so in this life you have found the relationship ambiguous.

(Pause.) If you take this information to heart, you should then intuitively realize that by giving birth to the child (pause) you performed a kindly gesture, and opened a door. The system should then realize that there is no need for the symptoms, and release you from them.