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(For a while now Jane and I have been considering the question, aloud, of Seth’s availability to us whenever we choose to hold a session. This would take into account our physical time system, etc. We thought the question would have many ramifications. Note that I didn’t specifically ask that the question be discussed this evening.
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Now. As to my availability at your sessions.
You know the nature of personality now to some degree, and I am always to some degree present at your sessions. (Smile.) Now give us a moment.
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(Jane now began to gesture with her hands and arms.) It is as if there were two portions of a bridge, like a toll bridge or a drawbridge, and these two portions you see must meet. When you wish to contact me at other than appointed times, I may or may not be easily (underlined) available. Your own emotional need and impetus will however be made known to me. Therefore if that need is strong I would of course be here, even as you would not disregard the need of a friend. I am not automatically available however any more than you are.
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Give us a moment. (Pause.) Now when you watch, say, educational TV, you see the teacher, and he speaks. He may or may not actually be speaking at that time, for you may be watching a film. But the teacher exists whether or not he is speaking at that time, in your terms, and his message is as legitimate. So now see Ruburt as my TV screen. I must come through much more clearly, and you have here the essence of the teacher.
The teacher transforms the TV screen until the TV screen becomes momentarily the teacher. Now it makes little difference, you see, when the transformation is worked, in your terms, or what dials are turned, or whether or not I as myself am at this moment within Ruburt speaking in your terms, or whether I did this (meaning this session, being delivered by Jane now) last evening in your terms, and tonight is a film or playback.
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Now. I may prepare my film in advance, in your terms, when consciously Ruburt is not aware of it, and when no impression is made upon his conscious mind.
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Now, some part of Ruburt is of course aware, for I would not intrude, and he has long since given his permission for such an arrangement. Nor, because you ask specific questions at a specific session, and I answer them, does it necessarily mean that the program has not been prepared, in your terms, earlier; for on many occasions I will see the questions within your mind, or the minds of your witnesses, and will therefore answer them, in your terms ahead of time.
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I use certain facets of my personality, for they are helpful as a teacher. You know all of me that you are able to know, at any given time in your terms. (Pause.) It would be relatively (underlined)but certainly practically impossible, for me to make my full reality clear to you, now, in our sessions, for your understanding would not contain it.
Now you may take your break. We would not want to blow a tube.
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Now, give us a moment. Some information for you...
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He was taking you to a concert. I do not know now, or see now, what initiated your reaction, but something happened that frightened you. You yelled at the horses and screamed. Your uncle fell. The horses panicked, and [he] fell beneath a hoof. You never forgave yourself, and now in your first reincarnation as a woman since that time, you decided to be the vehicle through which he could enter physical reality again, and so became his mother in physical terms.
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Now. While the inner self is aware of this connection, the present self has been fooling itself to some degree, for it did not accept the intuitional knowledge. Regardless of what you thought consciously therefore, you still inwardly blamed yourself for letting the child go, and therefore the difficulty with the womanly organs.
You blamed yourself for financial reasons, though consciously this would be the last thing to come to your mind. You think of yourself quite free of financial conditions, and as an adult now in independent terms set yourself free of your parents. But subconsciously you wondered what social environment your child would really (underlined) encounter, and whether or not you deprived him of the social and economic benefits that you have convinced yourself, consciously, you do not need.
You also wondered about depriving your mother of a grandchild now, for though you tell yourself she would not understand, still you wonder if interest in the child would not give her additional impetus and interest.
Now these are things, some of the things, that you do not want to face consciously. Your uncle did not blame you for the accident at the time. While there was a past family connection, you were not the closest of friends, and there was no need or desire on either of your parts for a family connection of any duration in this life.
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Now. I cannot give you your entire reincarnational history in an evening.
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Now you may end the session or take a break as you prefer.
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