“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(This is a different thing than Seth being available say at 8 AM, or noon, or other capricious hours we may choose. We have not conducted any tests to see if this is possible. We do know however that Seth would be available at any time under emotional stress, if we asked.)

I am however, again, automatically a part of the message that I bring to you. At times, for various reasons, I am here more completely than in other sessions. These reasons however have to do with circumstances that are usually beyond “normal” control: electromagnetic conditions, psychological circumstances—the psychological climate for example. All of these could be considered as atmospheric conditions through which I must enter.

He was taking you to a concert. I do not know now, or see now, what initiated your reaction, but something happened that frightened you. You yelled at the horses and screamed. Your uncle fell. The horses panicked, and [he] fell beneath a hoof. You never forgave yourself, and now in your first reincarnation as a woman since that time, you decided to be the vehicle through which he could enter physical reality again, and so became his mother in physical terms.

You blamed yourself for financial reasons, though consciously this would be the last thing to come to your mind. You think of yourself quite free of financial conditions, and as an adult now in independent terms set yourself free of your parents. But subconsciously you wondered what social environment your child would really (underlined) encounter, and whether or not you deprived him of the social and economic benefits that you have convinced yourself, consciously, you do not need.

Now these are things, some of the things, that you do not want to face consciously. Your uncle did not blame you for the accident at the time. While there was a past family connection, you were not the closest of friends, and there was no need or desire on either of your parts for a family connection of any duration in this life.