“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

Now. I may prepare my film in advance, in your terms, when consciously Ruburt is not aware of it, and when no impression is made upon his conscious mind.

Now, some part of Ruburt is of course aware, for I would not intrude, and he has long since given his permission for such an arrangement. Nor, because you ask specific questions at a specific session, and I answer them, does it necessarily mean that the program has not been prepared, in your terms, earlier; for on many occasions I will see the questions within your mind, or the minds of your witnesses, and will therefore answer them, in your terms ahead of time.

Now. While the inner self is aware of this connection, the present self has been fooling itself to some degree, for it did not accept the intuitional knowledge. Regardless of what you thought consciously therefore, you still inwardly blamed yourself for letting the child go, and therefore the difficulty with the womanly organs.

You blamed yourself for financial reasons, though consciously this would be the last thing to come to your mind. You think of yourself quite free of financial conditions, and as an adult now in independent terms set yourself free of your parents. But subconsciously you wondered what social environment your child would really (underlined) encounter, and whether or not you deprived him of the social and economic benefits that you have convinced yourself, consciously, you do not need.

Now these are things, some of the things, that you do not want to face consciously. Your uncle did not blame you for the accident at the time. While there was a past family connection, you were not the closest of friends, and there was no need or desire on either of your parts for a family connection of any duration in this life.