“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

He is now committed. His diverse abilities had to be gathered together and focused. The deepest needs and desires of the personality had to be aroused and deeply involved in an endeavor that would allow the personality to use its full strength in a focused and emotionally intense manner.

The process could or could not have developed, according to the probabilities and the circumstances. Even the early environment, so abhorred by the ego, were chosen in order to deepen the desire for truth and to force the personality to face the issues of life and death, evil and goodness, full face. Ruburt’s ego would have avoided the questions and taken the easy road, and this easy road would not have developed the full potentials that were necessary if the personality were to use its creative and intuitional abilities in any important manner.

The ego would have chosen an easier road, through fiction. (Pause.) Through easy success, through in fact a far more shallow route, but the intuitive self would have suffered drastically in your future, and there would have been severe difficulties.

Your own early environment should also be considered for what it was, a challenge set by you to bring out your full potential, through making you face problems from which you would have only too readily isolated yourself. In a recent session I outlined the books that Ruburt will write. He will be free, you see, to work in fiction, and will do so in the future, because fiction will be something different than it was.

(See the notes on page 194, preceding the 455th session for January 6, 1969, re the books Jane will write. These notes contain a brief summary of an unscheduled session held over the Xmas holidays, withSue Mullin and Carl Watkins as witnesses. I would now like to add to those notes.

I am of course aware of your Christ’s head. You would not have felt free enough to do it in the past, for you did not realize what it represented, or rather, you did not see the implications.

He spoke honestly when he said that he considered it intellectual suicide to accept even the possibility of personal survival of death. The conflict brought him to a point where he simply could go no further intellectually, for the intellect would not follow where the intuitions led. This caused him to think of our sessions in stereotyped ways, putting an either-or aspect to our relationship, and closing his mind to my own explanation of my existence.

As he himself suspected, there has been a personality reorganization on Jane’s part, and for the abilities to be used fully, such reorganization was necessary. A reorganization would have occurred in any case, only it could have resulted in diminution of effective ability, instead of a magnification. He recognized this, feeling that while he highly enjoyed science fiction it was a dead end, for the answers he sought could not be worked out even through philosophical fiction.

In our sessions I use, with Ruburt’s permission, his intellectual abilities also (pause), in an organized fashion. Poetry was far less (humorously) dependable. Now. Many of these reasons are the personality’s own reasons for (louder, abruptly) opening up the revelationary channels, and they would be legitimate regardless of the nature of my existence.

In time Ruburt will recognize fully my independent nature, but he did not completely (underlined) even admit the revelationary source of the material until quite lately. He knew it, but the ego did not admit it. Now the intellect is free from the only tie-up it would encounter, for again, it has always accepted the legitimacy of revelationary data.

It understands quite well that I am more than a subconscious extension of the personality. I would not be satisfied, either, with a highly simplified version of my existence, accepting me as a long-gowned spirit in those terms known to it, and knows that I am far more than that, that the truth is deeper, and it will work with the intuitive self to search for answers. (A bit jumbled, Seth!)

It is far more permissive, while still retaining its dominance in those areas that are its natural ground. It also realizes the experiences open to it that would otherwise be unavailable, and it can now itself grow in understanding and development, and as a willing and able protector, but not a jealous one.

One small note. I believe there will be extra freedom in out-of-body experiences for Ruburt. Tell him not to be frightened at any new developments in that area. I will be there whether he knows it or not. No, there are not any phantoms out there, Ruburt. It will simply be a new environment. You will return safely. A friend wants to meet you. My friend. A long trip in a brief time. You will be protected all the way. I would hold your hand, but that would probably frighten you more than anything else. Be assured, it will be a safe trip.

(10:43. Jane snapped right out of trance, quite alert; she remembered the last part of the data and said she “got scared” while giving it, re astral travel. Yet after supper tonight she said she wished Seth would help her out while projecting.