“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

Only now does Ruburt see the consistency and how the path as he knew it brought forth the impetus that is now his present. I told him sessions ago that the poetic and psychic portions of his personality were deeply united, and now looking over his old records he knows that I was correct.

(Loud music was blaring up now from the apartment below us.)

Your own early environment should also be considered for what it was, a challenge set by you to bring out your full potential, through making you face problems from which you would have only too readily isolated yourself. In a recent session I outlined the books that Ruburt will write. He will be free, you see, to work in fiction, and will do so in the future, because fiction will be something different than it was.

(I neglected to add that after this unscheduled session, which was held at night, Jane also spoke as Ruburt. This was the first time I had seen this take place, although it has happened a few times before, usually in ESP class. See the notes on page 122, 444th session for October 30, 1968. On the occasion I witnessed, I do not recall what Jane said as Ruburt.

(9:35. Jane came out of trance rather quickly; her eyes remained dark, her manner subdued, and she said: “Yeah, I’m pretty Seth yet, but I’m also conscious of that music.” The music was still noisy from below us.

Now. The search for answers, and this passionate yearning toward truth, has driven Ruburt’s personality, and he became ill only when he was afraid to continue the search, because it led him into byways that he had not planned upon; or rather, upon which the ego had not planned.

Until then the ego and the intuitive self had not come into conflict, as far as basic philosophy was concerned. The intuitive self presented the ego however with a new line of development that it was not prepared to follow.

One of the reasons that the intellect refused to see, that its own search was bound to end up in this fashion, was Ruburt’s inability to see beyond organized religion’s hypocrisy. This was mentioned earlier in tonight’s session in regard to you.

He is quite free to question the basis of the sessions, and to question my own source. (Pause.) But he did not even do this with any true (underlined) logic, while he distrusted himself, or distrusted the intuitive and revelationary (underlined) aspect of the material. Now his intellect is accepting the revelationary aspect of the material, and the word appeared in his own writings about it for the first time. (Recently.) It is a highly evocative word to him, and even his intellect has always trusted revelationary knowledge as long as it was given to him through channels that were egotistically accepted. (Emphatic delivery.)

As he himself suspected, there has been a personality reorganization on Jane’s part, and for the abilities to be used fully, such reorganization was necessary. A reorganization would have occurred in any case, only it could have resulted in diminution of effective ability, instead of a magnification. He recognized this, feeling that while he highly enjoyed science fiction it was a dead end, for the answers he sought could not be worked out even through philosophical fiction.

Poetry came the closest, and yet the form of that art still could not carry the full weight of the knowledge he knew was available. The high points, yes. (Pause.) Poetry could not however express in a consistent way those intricate patterns so that they could be clearly understood.

In our sessions I use, with Ruburt’s permission, his intellectual abilities also (pause), in an organized fashion. Poetry was far less (humorously) dependable. Now. Many of these reasons are the personality’s own reasons for (louder, abruptly) opening up the revelationary channels, and they would be legitimate regardless of the nature of my existence.

In other words, your friend’s ego has declared me legitimate now. On the other hand, I have always counted upon Ruburt’s ego as an ally in this fashion. It kept Ruburt in strong protection under its wing, and if it was overly stubborn, it was so because it always recognized Ruburt’s intuitive abilities, and the full strength of Ruburt’s sense of commitment, once given.

Neither of you realize the strength of the abilities as yet, and the need for forging a strong personality who could learn to handle them wisely, and hold its own while using them. The ego feared that the abilities could sweep Ruburt away in the past even before our sessions, sensing the great but as yet unfocused energy. When it was assured that this was the mission for which the personality had waited, and only when it was positive, did it free its protective hold and give its blessings.

(This session was held on Monday, January 13. It is Friday, January 17. To date Jane has had no such unusual projecting experience as outlined above by Seth.)