“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

He is now committed. His diverse abilities had to be gathered together and focused. The deepest needs and desires of the personality had to be aroused and deeply involved in an endeavor that would allow the personality to use its full strength in a focused and emotionally intense manner.

Only now does Ruburt see the consistency and how the path as he knew it brought forth the impetus that is now his present. I told him sessions ago that the poetic and psychic portions of his personality were deeply united, and now looking over his old records he knows that I was correct.

(Loud music was blaring up now from the apartment below us.)

The commitment also unites the two of you in a passionate philosophical concern. All probabilities now point toward success for you both; but remember, as you know, I do not mean a sudden showering. When I speak of success I mean that now you will be able to use your abilities to their fullest. That is success.

You will to some extent change the thought of your error, and in so doing of future errors, in your terms. You will put rungs down for others to follow. If you wonder, you will be financially comfortable, but the energy now being gathered together, and focused will be felt in all your endeavors. It is more powerful than you realize, and it will bring great changes in your lives.

(See the notes on page 194, preceding the 455th session for January 6, 1969, re the books Jane will write. These notes contain a brief summary of an unscheduled session held over the Xmas holidays, withSue Mullin and Carl Watkins as witnesses. I would now like to add to those notes.

I do not want to make any suggestions now, for what I am thinking of will come from you.

(While moving about in the kitchen during break Jane got this within: “Ruburt is only now beginning to start upon his life’s work.” Sitting down a bit later she said: “I’m trying to get back in,” meaning trance, “but that music downstairs bothers me.” Resume finally at 9:48. )

Now. The search for answers, and this passionate yearning toward truth, has driven Ruburt’s personality, and he became ill only when he was afraid to continue the search, because it led him into byways that he had not planned upon; or rather, upon which the ego had not planned.

You suggested that Ruburt put his records in one place for quite sound intuitive reasons. He could have read his old poetry over 50 times in the past two years, without realizing what he has finally realized now.

He is quite free to question the basis of the sessions, and to question my own source. (Pause.) But he did not even do this with any true (underlined) logic, while he distrusted himself, or distrusted the intuitive and revelationary (underlined) aspect of the material. Now his intellect is accepting the revelationary aspect of the material, and the word appeared in his own writings about it for the first time. (Recently.) It is a highly evocative word to him, and even his intellect has always trusted revelationary knowledge as long as it was given to him through channels that were egotistically accepted. (Emphatic delivery.)

In our sessions I use, with Ruburt’s permission, his intellectual abilities also (pause), in an organized fashion. Poetry was far less (humorously) dependable. Now. Many of these reasons are the personality’s own reasons for (louder, abruptly) opening up the revelationary channels, and they would be legitimate regardless of the nature of my existence.

Were I only his personality’s method of gaining revelationary knowledge (pause), then he should be content with that, recognizing his need of me in that endeavor. I am however far more. Now there is a need on my part also. Any personality has a psychological makeup, whether or not they are equipped with physical form, and I am a teacher.

In time Ruburt will recognize fully my independent nature, but he did not completely (underlined) even admit the revelationary source of the material until quite lately. He knew it, but the ego did not admit it. Now the intellect is free from the only tie-up it would encounter, for again, it has always accepted the legitimacy of revelationary data.

In other words, your friend’s ego has declared me legitimate now. On the other hand, I have always counted upon Ruburt’s ego as an ally in this fashion. It kept Ruburt in strong protection under its wing, and if it was overly stubborn, it was so because it always recognized Ruburt’s intuitive abilities, and the full strength of Ruburt’s sense of commitment, once given.

Now it adds its strength. I made no attempts to browbeat it, recognizing its purposes. Ruburt chose a strong ego as a necessary guardian in adolescence, and as a balance to the strong spontaneous self, until a mission made itself known, and the correct mission. It simply did not recognize the mission for some time.

It is still protective, but now it realizes that it has nothing to fear.

The ego now, once again, sees the whole personality’s search as its own, and will wholeheartedly take part.

It recognizes the answers given in the sessions as legitimate, and also that these answers involve intellectual as well as intuitional effort. The ego is pleased, for it now finds itself at the helm of a much stronger personality, and with more challenges, free to use its abilities, to question and wonder at will now that it accepts the basis of the sessions.

It is far more permissive, while still retaining its dominance in those areas that are its natural ground. It also realizes the experiences open to it that would otherwise be unavailable, and it can now itself grow in understanding and development, and as a willing and able protector, but not a jealous one.

Now I will let you end the session, but this is information that is highly valuable. The spontaneous self is also highly relieved that it is on good terms again with the ego, and that the personality is establishing itself and the main work is beginning.

For you and Ruburt both are now beginning your work. Ruburt’s physical symptoms will entirely vanish, and within now a relatively short period of time, as given in a recent session. My heartiest regards to you both from your legitimate Seth.