“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

He is now committed. His diverse abilities had to be gathered together and focused. The deepest needs and desires of the personality had to be aroused and deeply involved in an endeavor that would allow the personality to use its full strength in a focused and emotionally intense manner.

Only now does Ruburt see the consistency and how the path as he knew it brought forth the impetus that is now his present. I told him sessions ago that the poetic and psychic portions of his personality were deeply united, and now looking over his old records he knows that I was correct.

Your own early environment should also be considered for what it was, a challenge set by you to bring out your full potential, through making you face problems from which you would have only too readily isolated yourself. In a recent session I outlined the books that Ruburt will write. He will be free, you see, to work in fiction, and will do so in the future, because fiction will be something different than it was.

(Here Seth refers to a painting I began yesterday, in line with approach two of the suggestions he gave me in the last, 456th session, I am following his suggestions and they are working well.)

Now. The search for answers, and this passionate yearning toward truth, has driven Ruburt’s personality, and he became ill only when he was afraid to continue the search, because it led him into byways that he had not planned upon; or rather, upon which the ego had not planned.

You suggested that Ruburt put his records in one place for quite sound intuitive reasons. He could have read his old poetry over 50 times in the past two years, without realizing what he has finally realized now.

He spoke honestly when he said that he considered it intellectual suicide to accept even the possibility of personal survival of death. The conflict brought him to a point where he simply could go no further intellectually, for the intellect would not follow where the intuitions led. This caused him to think of our sessions in stereotyped ways, putting an either-or aspect to our relationship, and closing his mind to my own explanation of my existence.

He is quite free to question the basis of the sessions, and to question my own source. (Pause.) But he did not even do this with any true (underlined) logic, while he distrusted himself, or distrusted the intuitive and revelationary (underlined) aspect of the material. Now his intellect is accepting the revelationary aspect of the material, and the word appeared in his own writings about it for the first time. (Recently.) It is a highly evocative word to him, and even his intellect has always trusted revelationary knowledge as long as it was given to him through channels that were egotistically accepted. (Emphatic delivery.)

As he himself suspected, there has been a personality reorganization on Jane’s part, and for the abilities to be used fully, such reorganization was necessary. A reorganization would have occurred in any case, only it could have resulted in diminution of effective ability, instead of a magnification. He recognized this, feeling that while he highly enjoyed science fiction it was a dead end, for the answers he sought could not be worked out even through philosophical fiction.

Poetry came the closest, and yet the form of that art still could not carry the full weight of the knowledge he knew was available. The high points, yes. (Pause.) Poetry could not however express in a consistent way those intricate patterns so that they could be clearly understood.

Were I only his personality’s method of gaining revelationary knowledge (pause), then he should be content with that, recognizing his need of me in that endeavor. I am however far more. Now there is a need on my part also. Any personality has a psychological makeup, whether or not they are equipped with physical form, and I am a teacher.

In time Ruburt will recognize fully my independent nature, but he did not completely (underlined) even admit the revelationary source of the material until quite lately. He knew it, but the ego did not admit it. Now the intellect is free from the only tie-up it would encounter, for again, it has always accepted the legitimacy of revelationary data.

One small note. I believe there will be extra freedom in out-of-body experiences for Ruburt. Tell him not to be frightened at any new developments in that area. I will be there whether he knows it or not. No, there are not any phantoms out there, Ruburt. It will simply be a new environment. You will return safely. A friend wants to meet you. My friend. A long trip in a brief time. You will be protected all the way. I would hold your hand, but that would probably frighten you more than anything else. Be assured, it will be a safe trip.