“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

He realizes that a specific time is more practical. He enjoyed last evening’s spontaneous session (for Jane’s Tuesday night ESP class), and such sessions, while they do not particularly add to our material, replenish his creative efforts and give him a sense of freedom. The spontaneity often, though not always, helps to focus his abilities, and provides us with an excellent trance state. The spontaneity provides its own training. You may have noticed that often when you miss a regular session, I have held a spontaneous one in class.

I am far more interested in personality equations than in mathematical ones. I have said what I intended to say this evening. Now you may ask me questions or end the session, or I will begin some other material. Or you may take a break and think of questions, or just take as rest as you prefer.

Consciously of course they do not. Underneath they know there is a communication, but they do not realize they are being painted as such. In one man’s mind he has seen your image however, and there is some telepathic communication operating both ways, but both of you accept the thoughts as your own.

His first name is Edward or perhaps Edwin. His last name, a strange one with a foreign connotation: Z E N O, (spelled) is as close as I can come, though I believe that is only the first part of a larger name. Zeno-mythlin (The mythlin is my phonetic version of the name Jane pronounced, somewhat haltingly.) That may be two names, perhaps with a hyphen. Edward Zeno-Mythlin; or one name is a family name.

Two small paintings on your shelf. They are both of the same man. One is more a profile than the other. Ruburt knows. He has noticed them and disliked them. He disliked the person.

He is well aware of your mother’s vitality, and she is well aware subconsciously that her vitality still goads him into a semblance of reaction. She still acts as a stimuli, as you know. In one way she forces him to stay when he would retire, and when her thoughts are not strongly with him he will attempt to escape further.

Now as she more vividly imagines life without him, this stimuli will wane. She is now vividly imagining existence without him. On the one hand you can say that he is weakening proportionately. On the other hand he is freeing himself proportionately.

Far be it from me to give either Ruburt or yourself swelled heads, but in your cases we see the male and female aspects well-balanced, one of the reasons why this is your last incarnation. These elements are highly unstable and each personality works them out.

He sees before him the people he has known. In one way he is happy. He can show his aggressive nature, which is basically his creative nature, but he does not have to deal with it. Others restrain him. He has not learned the difference between violence and creativity, though they are closely allied, and he is frightened of the similarity.

I have also known some of your people, you see. Now. At one time—now at one time Ruburt’s mother and your father were portions of the same entity.

(“There’s five people holding him down now. He’s struggling, fighting... there’s another nurse there, a different one...” I cajoled, talked, shook her and ordered her out of trance. I made her put on her glasses, drink wine, walk about, etc. Jane said she had no visions of Father; no projections were involved, etc. “Just a shadowy feeling.”