“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

Your family in this life has always been determined upon longevity, and you pace your energy. Ruburt has not. The ways are simply different. Now your father paced himself unwisely. You are not making the same mistake. In many ways your mother was also wiser. Although your reactions at times may be different, and although you may not agree with me, still Ruburt will rarely be unrealistic in understanding or in utilizing methods that are highly practical, though neither of you may understand them as such.

His first name is Edward or perhaps Edwin. His last name, a strange one with a foreign connotation: Z E N O, (spelled) is as close as I can come, though I believe that is only the first part of a larger name. Zeno-mythlin (The mythlin is my phonetic version of the name Jane pronounced, somewhat haltingly.) That may be two names, perhaps with a hyphen. Edward Zeno-Mythlin; or one name is a family name.

His struggles with his nurses (which are violent) are struggles to escape physical bonds, and to be away. He did not use his vitality in his manhood joyfully or fully or explosively, either in work, nor purpose, nor family. Therefore it lingers, and he cannot disentangle himself from it. He paced himself out of jealousy of his energy, so that it outlived him. It was not focused in work. It was unfocused.

He never served, truly, as a male image for you or your brothers. Both of your parents, unfortunately in this life, served as uncomplimentary female images. This is why you trust the male qualities in Ruburt; why Richard chose a family in which he married where the males have been dominant, and why Loren chose for a wife a woman with more vitality than he.