“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

Now. You have a fine, strong and worthwhile purpose, but you will not fulfill it well while you rail against what you do not have, and ignore the abilities and gifts and blessings that you do have.

You will not discover the purpose and meaning of your life when you insist that it follow certain consciously predetermined roads, and while you concentrate upon what you do not have. This saps your energy and dulls your intuitions. You are indeed obsessed with the idea of marriage, and with male love, but as Joseph mentioned this is but a symptom.

Once you wholeheartedly accept life on life’s terms, then you may indeed find what you are after, but not while you insist upon it as a condition for continued existence in this life. You have no right to set such terms, any more than a flower would insist upon sunny ground and a preferred spot within the garden as a prerequisite for its own existence.

You are pouting. You are quarreling, and in so doing you cut yourself off from the joy and vitality that do make life worthwhile living. Your own purpose can and will make life a daily pleasure when you let your conditions go. You forget what you do have—physical health and vitality. You forget your intellect, which is a good one, and your intuitions. Many are not blessed with these.

In denying life to yourself you end up by denying life to others. Now I wish this session was recorded so you could hear me, for I hold you, as Ruburt does, closely and dearly as a friend. But you are bound to misinterpret what I say in some sessions, and so it behooves me to speak more plainly. You do not realize now, you do not let yourself realize, the beauty and the complicated reality of your being. You do not let yourself realize the spontaneity and joyful burst that is your inner self, that results in this present human personality that you call yourself. Nor the effort and creative energy that has gone into your making, and that sings within your being like the first morning of creation.

Instead your love is very wide and deep. It can aid many people, for it is ungeneralized and vast, and it will bring you much satisfaction and pleasure as it helps others. But you must not insist on any one condition as a prerequisite for existence. I am not saying that you will not have what you want, again, but as long as you hold the wish as a condition of existence you will not.

Now you have latched upon this particular preoccupation, but what it is in the end makes no difference. It could have been something else entirely. There are people who feel that existence is meaningless without wealth. Now this sounds idiotic to you. There are people who have committed suicide because they established wealth as a condition of existence. They were unable (underlined) to appreciate a love relationship because of this preoccupation, and you have been unwilling to appreciate the true miracle of your existence because of your preoccupation. (Loudly.)

If every cell set up the conditions of its own existence you would not have a body. The conditions blind you to what life is, even to the miraculous balance and imbalance of physical and nonphysical that allows you to think and breathe. Forget your conditions and you will realize the meaning of joy within your own life.

When you cease holding this as a condition of existence, then you may very well be loved by a man. But no one sets the conditions, or pouts in a corner, or threatens suicide without courting severe difficulties. Ruburt has ridiculed the conventional idea of a god who says “Do what I want you to do or I will destroy you,” and yet you say to life “Give me what I want or I threaten to destroy myself.”

I would impress her with the fact that her existence will be more joyful than she can imagine, more productive and fulfilling, when she lets these conditions go. Now the whole answer to her dilemma is in this session, and she must understand that she is capable of doing what I suggest, and that the joys and rewards will be beyond her present (underlined) expectations.

There is such a preoccupation with what she has not that she is completely blinded to what she has. Now when you receive her reaction to this session, we will hold another. Know that she is held and loved, and that life itself will sustain her, and let the demands upon life drain away like sand between the fingers.

I wish you then a hearty good evening, and to your friend, our present beloved young woman, Ruburt’s Pat Norelli, my best wishes for a beginning now, of vitality and joy, as you throw aside all conditions, and accept your life for what it is and will (underlined) be—a joy, an exaltation to yourself, and a help to all those you will still contact.