“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

You will not discover the purpose and meaning of your life when you insist that it follow certain consciously predetermined roads, and while you concentrate upon what you do not have. This saps your energy and dulls your intuitions. You are indeed obsessed with the idea of marriage, and with male love, but as Joseph mentioned this is but a symptom.

You set yourself against all of this, against the gist of life and joy and vitality, and turn your back upon it with the paltry excuse: “If one person does not love me in a male-female relationship in this life, then I threaten to destroy myself, and shatter the form that holds the spirit, and shatter the form like a glass thrown upon the floor, like a child in a tantrum.” (Voice louder; very emphatic and fast delivery.)

Now. Practically speaking, you must stop insisting upon male-female personal love as the condition of existence. You must accept life on its own terms with the faith that your life now has a meaning and a beauty and a purpose. You can do this, and I know that you can do it. Then you will begin to see the meaning in your life that has always been there, and the purpose and joy that you have not been able to fill.

Now I speak to you honestly, and while you may find my words harsh they are spoken with both love and compassion, and (underlined) understanding of your innermost thoughts. Your salvation lies in giving up personal male love and marriage as (underlined) a condition for existence. Because you do often misinterpret me, I repeat: this does not mean you will not find such a male and relationship. But it does mean you will not find this while you hold it as a condition of existence.