“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

You will not discover the purpose and meaning of your life when you insist that it follow certain consciously predetermined roads, and while you concentrate upon what you do not have. This saps your energy and dulls your intuitions. You are indeed obsessed with the idea of marriage, and with male love, but as Joseph mentioned this is but a symptom.

This idea that you must (underlined) find a man that will love you and you alone, is a cover to hide this deeper refusal to accept life on life’s terms. There is a cultural aspect here that you do not realize, and that you would consider beneath you.

When you cease holding this as a condition of existence, then you may very well be loved by a man. But no one sets the conditions, or pouts in a corner, or threatens suicide without courting severe difficulties. Ruburt has ridiculed the conventional idea of a god who says “Do what I want you to do or I will destroy you,” and yet you say to life “Give me what I want or I threaten to destroy myself.”

Now. The answer is no. When you understand my idea of life, then you do not destroy yourself in any form. You do not take it for granted that in the next life you will solve your problems. You take it for granted that this form and this personality, like all your other personalities, is unique, with purpose that it alone can best (underlined) achieve.

He would attempt to limit his abilities if they did not agree with his preconceived ideas. If he could not go his own way, he would not go, and so he slowed himself down.

I would let you know that Ruburt is now, finally accepting life on its terms, and this is the reason for his recovery. He has been helped by others, and Ford’s and Edwards’ ideas are quite legitimate.