“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

As a result there are bursts of communication, followed by an urge for secrecy, as if he could lose himself through these communications to others; as if with each word energy escaped from him so that he would want to hold it back in protection.

There has been the inner sense of a void to be filled, a fear of identity escaping and running outward—my cup runneth over, and there will be none of me left, you see. On the other hand it has always been natural for the personality to turn outward in an easy manner, and with exuberance, so that in past lives we find two lives strongly devoted to the nurture of others. But in these cases the personality was filled with an inner dread, and to some extent resented those he helped. If he were out helping others, then who will mind the store? He was afraid his stock would be gone.

In two other lives there was instead the development of inner abilities to the exclusion of others, a closing down of the windows and a barring of the doors, and he would not look out and no one dared look in. He would make horrible funny faces at the window of his soul to frighten others away, and yet through all of this the inner abilities did indeed grow. He added to his stock.

Now. There are several fields in which you would do well—and acting is one where you would speak as well as write the words, you see. (Pause.) You may be appalled, but you would do well as a salesman, connected with public relations and business; that is, some of your abilities would serve you well in these fields.

If you stay in your present field you can do very well indeed, working up to rather high positions. If such is the case your own writing must then be pursued vigilantly. You would need to protect the time necessary to get it done.

With a few years’ further development, and if developments continue smoothly in your own personality, you could also do well as a particular kind of agent, dealing with writers of psychic phenomena, because of your understanding of the subject, and because of the larger knowledge of the business publishing field that you would have by that time.

Your salesman’s ability would allow you to convince publishers to buy such material. Your understanding of the subject matter would help you deal with those involved in psychic phenomena, and your humor would protect you from them.

A relationship in this life can continue to develop along those terms, with some degree of success, but the issue is open. There are no reasons from the past that would more or less necessitate the relationship. If the relationship is not carried through, then with the probabilities as I see them now, another strong one will develop close to the end of three years from now, involving a woman with whom you will get along very well, although she was merely a third grand-nephew in the past.

In this case however certain temperamental tendencies would serve to unite you. She would have a highhanded manner, but this again according to the probabilities.