“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

There is a delightful outer self, and it smiles and nods genially at those it meets, and pirouettes and prances. Underneath however there is a fear of this outer self. The inner self, in your present, has not yet found nor focused its true ability or direction, and so it fears itself a void and therefore often resents the energy of the outer self.

There has been in past existences, in your terms, some experience with what is termed occult knowledge, though it is not my term. The personality has been used to depending upon inner intuitions, and knew it had further abilities to develop now. But there was a laxness within, and a lack of inner concentration that in this life hampered earlier development.

There has been the inner sense of a void to be filled, a fear of identity escaping and running outward—my cup runneth over, and there will be none of me left, you see. On the other hand it has always been natural for the personality to turn outward in an easy manner, and with exuberance, so that in past lives we find two lives strongly devoted to the nurture of others. But in these cases the personality was filled with an inner dread, and to some extent resented those he helped. If he were out helping others, then who will mind the store? He was afraid his stock would be gone.

In two other lives there was instead the development of inner abilities to the exclusion of others, a closing down of the windows and a barring of the doors, and he would not look out and no one dared look in. He would make horrible funny faces at the window of his soul to frighten others away, and yet through all of this the inner abilities did indeed grow. He added to his stock.

He had a tendency to hoard in these two lives. Now however there is the necessity to use those inner developments already worked for, to use them gladly and fully. He has already opened up the door, and he has already begun, but barely begun, to synthesize these inner and outer conditions.

He realizes—and will more so—he realizes that the inner self need not be so heavily guarded, that his identity will not escape from him like a dog who leaves the leash.

(9:45. Jane’s trance had been good but she came out rather easily. Tam Mossman said: “Seth was certainly into my imaginative life; also, he has me pegged psychologically.” Tam said Seth’s data about his inner life was “especially true.” He also cited similarities between his doodles and the crest decoration Seth described.