“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(Tam Mossman, of Prentice-Hall, was a witness. He had arrived yesterday to spend the weekend with us and to discuss the book Jane is doing on the Seth material. At midnight, on September 5th, Jane gave a series of impressions for Tam, speaking as herself; Tam verified the psychological content of most of them. Some of my notes, scribbled at top speed, may be hard to read:)

A great exuberance and a great need. A desire to communicate, and yet a fear of being swept away. (Pause.) An expansiveness that is genuine but a fear, a fear here for the basic integrity of the self, a fear of being swept away, of not being able to hold the self in as if he fears it could bleed outward and leave you.

As a result there are bursts of communication, followed by an urge for secrecy, as if he could lose himself through these communications to others; as if with each word energy escaped from him so that he would want to hold it back in protection.

There has been the inner sense of a void to be filled, a fear of identity escaping and running outward—my cup runneth over, and there will be none of me left, you see. On the other hand it has always been natural for the personality to turn outward in an easy manner, and with exuberance, so that in past lives we find two lives strongly devoted to the nurture of others. But in these cases the personality was filled with an inner dread, and to some extent resented those he helped. If he were out helping others, then who will mind the store? He was afraid his stock would be gone.

In two other lives there was instead the development of inner abilities to the exclusion of others, a closing down of the windows and a barring of the doors, and he would not look out and no one dared look in. He would make horrible funny faces at the window of his soul to frighten others away, and yet through all of this the inner abilities did indeed grow. He added to his stock.

He had a tendency to hoard in these two lives. Now however there is the necessity to use those inner developments already worked for, to use them gladly and fully. He has already opened up the door, and he has already begun, but barely begun, to synthesize these inner and outer conditions.

He realizes—and will more so—he realizes that the inner self need not be so heavily guarded, that his identity will not escape from him like a dog who leaves the leash.

It is surely a sad sight to think of this poor monk, trying to find his monastery, and prayer only betraying him indeed as he falls into the stream. The results of your experiments however were carried on. They were recovered and indirectly...indirectly...they contributed to certain achievements made at a much later date, in your time.

(9:45. Jane’s trance had been good but she came out rather easily. Tam Mossman said: “Seth was certainly into my imaginative life; also, he has me pegged psychologically.” Tam said Seth’s data about his inner life was “especially true.” He also cited similarities between his doodles and the crest decoration Seth described.

On the one hand you are too well in control of it. It delights you but you are like a man with a beautiful wife. He shows her off (Jane leaned forward for emphasis, eyes open and very dark), but he does not really let her work or be herself. So you sit within yourself and say: this is my intellect: it is lovely. We shall watch it play: and you are proud of it. But you do not allow it its full penetrating freedom.

(Again Tam said Seth knew him well psychologically. Tan had questions concerning his father and his girl, Eve and told us he felt he’d had extended psychological connections with both. Eve, he thought, has been pivotal in his life.

I will not now go into a discussion concerning your father, since there are several matters here, and the relationship was a fairly long one. He was a singer at one time. At another, a man who dealt with moneylending, and who somehow made this into a creative endeavor.

There is an innate love of travel that is not being indulged. There seems to be some preoccupation with speed that I do not understand. (Pause.) Either he is preoccupied with getting things started, or has a fear of going too fast, but there is an uneven pace beneath a calm exterior. Something seems to hold him back.

(11:16. Jane’s trance again was good, and it took her a few minutes to come out of it. Tam again verified the psychological content of the material, concerning all involved. Tam said he did not give us all the reasons for his verification because they were personal; but the data rang true to him.

(Seth did speak briefly the next evening however. He came through for Jane, Tam and me after a small party was over, our guests had left and the three of us were alone. Actually this was at 2 AM on Sunday, September 8. I made no notes at the time. Seth greeted us, gave a few voice effects which were controlled because of the hour and the proximity of other tenants, and expressed his willingness and capability to continue until six in the morning. This he could have done easily, but none of us were up to it.)