“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

A great exuberance and a great need. A desire to communicate, and yet a fear of being swept away. (Pause.) An expansiveness that is genuine but a fear, a fear here for the basic integrity of the self, a fear of being swept away, of not being able to hold the self in as if he fears it could bleed outward and leave you.

As a result there are bursts of communication, followed by an urge for secrecy, as if he could lose himself through these communications to others; as if with each word energy escaped from him so that he would want to hold it back in protection.

Much energy is indeed being directed outward. Within however there is a core of self-realization now beginning to gain strength, so that the amount of energy used inwardly will soon begin to match that expended outwardly. Too much was going (Jane gestured for emphasis) and not enough was coming in. You were getting enough from others. You were able to perceive and understand those connections, but you were not receiving needed communications from other layers of your own personality.