“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(Tam was a little nervous as time for the session approached, and Jane was also. The situation was not without its humorous and friendly aspects, and the session began a few minutes early. Jane began speaking for Seth, in trance, in a voice good but not exceptional. Her eyes opened often; pauses, gestures, etc., as usual.)

A great exuberance and a great need. A desire to communicate, and yet a fear of being swept away. (Pause.) An expansiveness that is genuine but a fear, a fear here for the basic integrity of the self, a fear of being swept away, of not being able to hold the self in as if he fears it could bleed outward and leave you.

Much energy is indeed being directed outward. Within however there is a core of self-realization now beginning to gain strength, so that the amount of energy used inwardly will soon begin to match that expended outwardly. Too much was going (Jane gestured for emphasis) and not enough was coming in. You were getting enough from others. You were able to perceive and understand those connections, but you were not receiving needed communications from other layers of your own personality.

There has been in past existences, in your terms, some experience with what is termed occult knowledge, though it is not my term. The personality has been used to depending upon inner intuitions, and knew it had further abilities to develop now. But there was a laxness within, and a lack of inner concentration that in this life hampered earlier development.

There has been the inner sense of a void to be filled, a fear of identity escaping and running outward—my cup runneth over, and there will be none of me left, you see. On the other hand it has always been natural for the personality to turn outward in an easy manner, and with exuberance, so that in past lives we find two lives strongly devoted to the nurture of others. But in these cases the personality was filled with an inner dread, and to some extent resented those he helped. If he were out helping others, then who will mind the store? He was afraid his stock would be gone.

He had a tendency to hoard in these two lives. Now however there is the necessity to use those inner developments already worked for, to use them gladly and fully. He has already opened up the door, and he has already begun, but barely begun, to synthesize these inner and outer conditions.

A mystification. A sense of perplexed wonder. A member of a monastic group (Jane leaned forward) who classified and collected various kinds of seeds. Now, this group worked on manuscripts officially, so to speak, but our friend here and several others were bootleg seed finders, believing against generally held theories at the time that many questions concerning nature could be found by examining nature.

This was near Bordeaux, but by near Bordeaux I mean it was the largest city. Now the order had to do with St. John, and there was a crest either belonging to the order or belonging to our friend’s family: a four-tonged fork, with a serpent above the upper portion of the handle in the foreground, and in the background either a castle or a monastery.(Bordeaux, seaport SW France.)

The efforts on the part of seed life were unappreciated. There was a limp in the left foot that was there always in that existence. At birth the doctor did not grab you too gently, and held you by that heel. The doctor being hardly of the professional caliber, but your mother’s 12-year-old niece. Who was at hand did the work at hand.

You knelt and began to pray, lost your balance. You grabbed hold of an overhanging branch but it gave way, and you were drowned.

(9:45. Jane’s trance had been good but she came out rather easily. Tam Mossman said: “Seth was certainly into my imaginative life; also, he has me pegged psychologically.” Tam said Seth’s data about his inner life was “especially true.” He also cited similarities between his doodles and the crest decoration Seth described.

Use your own psychic abilities, for they will grow as you use them, and you will be able to benefit from developments that have already been made, but that wait while certain adjustments are being made.

Now. Do not use the intellect like a shiny banner to wave from your windows. Instead use your intellect fully. You are playing with your intellect. It is a good one and you like it, but you are still not allowing yourself to use it fully. You are treating it as a fine and gaudy plaything that belongs to you, and you bring it out when the occasion seems suitable.

You wind it up like a fine toy, but you are careful of the directions in which you let it run. Now I am not saying, and do not mean, that you are narrow-minded in any way I am saying that your intellect is a fine one, but you have allowed yourself to be fascinated by its sparkling quality, and not used it thoroughly as a tool.

On the one hand you are too well in control of it. It delights you but you are like a man with a beautiful wife. He shows her off (Jane leaned forward for emphasis, eyes open and very dark), but he does not really let her work or be herself. So you sit within yourself and say: this is my intellect: it is lovely. We shall watch it play: and you are proud of it. But you do not allow it its full penetrating freedom.

It can do more for you than you are letting it do at this time, for it has depths that you are not using. (Long pause.) You allow it freedom in terms of radius. You let it range, but you have not as yet learned to let it go as deeply as it can.

Now by all conventional standards I should say to you: but for such a young man indeed, you have time to learn. (Smile.) You will learn, and are learning, but you have dealt also with this problem in different ways in other lives, so it is not so new to you. And because you have abilities both intellectual and intuitional, then also you have the responsibility to use them and understand them well. So your intellect should not be superficially enjoyed, but deeply used.

Now. There are several fields in which you would do well—and acting is one where you would speak as well as write the words, you see. (Pause.) You may be appalled, but you would do well as a salesman, connected with public relations and business; that is, some of your abilities would serve you well in these fields.

It will provide for you an excellent framework when you use it properly. You can make from it safe and sturdy steps to climb upward or downward, and be sure of getting back if you so choose. This will allow you to trust your intuitions more; for you do trust them to a fairly large degree but you will then have two methods, both dependable, both reliable and both of benefit.

Unless I am wrong on this time interpretation, you will not meet the third sister until you are approximately 45. Do not hold your breath while you are waiting. There have been connections and interconnections here, then, but I shall not pursue them this evening.

A relationship in this life can continue to develop along those terms, with some degree of success, but the issue is open. There are no reasons from the past that would more or less necessitate the relationship. If the relationship is not carried through, then with the probabilities as I see them now, another strong one will develop close to the end of three years from now, involving a woman with whom you will get along very well, although she was merely a third grand-nephew in the past.

In this case however certain temperamental tendencies would serve to unite you. She would have a highhanded manner, but this again according to the probabilities.

There is an innate love of travel that is not being indulged. There seems to be some preoccupation with speed that I do not understand. (Pause.) Either he is preoccupied with getting things started, or has a fear of going too fast, but there is an uneven pace beneath a calm exterior. Something seems to hold him back.

(11:16. Jane’s trance again was good, and it took her a few minutes to come out of it. Tam again verified the psychological content of the material, concerning all involved. Tam said he did not give us all the reasons for his verification because they were personal; but the data rang true to him.

(Seth did speak briefly the next evening however. He came through for Jane, Tam and me after a small party was over, our guests had left and the three of us were alone. Actually this was at 2 AM on Sunday, September 8. I made no notes at the time. Seth greeted us, gave a few voice effects which were controlled because of the hour and the proximity of other tenants, and expressed his willingness and capability to continue until six in the morning. This he could have done easily, but none of us were up to it.)