“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

A great exuberance and a great need. A desire to communicate, and yet a fear of being swept away. (Pause.) An expansiveness that is genuine but a fear, a fear here for the basic integrity of the self, a fear of being swept away, of not being able to hold the self in as if he fears it could bleed outward and leave you.

There is a delightful outer self, and it smiles and nods genially at those it meets, and pirouettes and prances. Underneath however there is a fear of this outer self. The inner self, in your present, has not yet found nor focused its true ability or direction, and so it fears itself a void and therefore often resents the energy of the outer self.

Much energy is indeed being directed outward. Within however there is a core of self-realization now beginning to gain strength, so that the amount of energy used inwardly will soon begin to match that expended outwardly. Too much was going (Jane gestured for emphasis) and not enough was coming in. You were getting enough from others. You were able to perceive and understand those connections, but you were not receiving needed communications from other layers of your own personality.

You sensed energy flowing outward and resented its flow, fearing to lose yourself. Now you are learning to utilize, receive and translate new energy from other layers of the self so that you will not feel depleted. (Pause.)

He realizes—and will more so—he realizes that the inner self need not be so heavily guarded, that his identity will not escape from him like a dog who leaves the leash.