“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(It was 9:30. “I’m okay.”)

This does not imply that I am unsympathetic. He correctly but imperfectly recalled a dream during your vacation, in which I was helping him with his health problems.

The following morning his condition was worse than it was during your entire vacation. From then on, however, it improved. He would not have been able to take your mountain jaunts at all, earlier. I was having a heart-to-heart talk with him. I have had others, but this was the first time he barely remembered.

Other intimate improvements have shown themselves, and they are symptoms of increased vitality and release, as spontaneity is allowed for, and returns. The whole condition is better. The change was good.

The letter that Ruburt has written is significant in ways that you have not seen. (Pause.) Mr. Edwards admits that he calls upon surviving personalities, healers who have survived death in your terms. In the past Ruburt would not admit, basically, that such survival was a fact, much less ask for help from such quarters.

When you say “I will do this myself,” you are speaking with a limited idea of identity. You are more than you know. The you that paints your paintings is far more than the Bob Butts you call yourself, though you are that Bob Butts. There is a matter of terms. Now Ruburt, you may say, has done all the hard work leading to a recovery alone; but he has had help. The recovery itself was utterly dependent upon his belief in it, however. (Pause.) This was his primary battle, for he understood finally what the illness represented. Every personality is different. The prerequisites for recovery are therefore different in each case.

In some cases of spiritual healing, belief is not necessary. In Ruburt’s case belief and unbelief were part of the problem itself. Belief therefore was necessary, for unbelief of spontaneity, fear of spontaneity, was a basic cause of the difficulty.

The initial poor reaction the morning following our little chat was simply the result of a temporary fear of letting go. It was of short duration, however. Ruburt did experience a sense of freedom in your hiking activities as a result, that was highly beneficial; and such activities are good for they increase his confidence. Of course, it was more difficult going down the hills—the significance of letting go is more apparent.

(Jane did do very well on our hiking trips. One mountain we climbed from the stream bed to its summit was several hundred feet high, and steep, etc.)

Water itself, natural water, such as the pool, has healing qualities also that he was able to use. The change that he perceives in your apartment is, of course, the result of inner change for the better.

This had to do with our chat, that he recalls as a dream. It resulted in your mountain-tumbling, which was very important to him. Some rather important changes crystallized, which seems something of a contradiction, as far as his own thoughts were concerned. He hinted at this when he told you that he was concentrating upon recovery.

(Earlier this evening Jane emphatically told me there was a difference in her attitudes now. She was concentrating on recovery instead of on the symptoms.)

Now, he was able to soak up energy in your natural surroundings, and to use it. Of course, he was ready to do so. The physical activity diverted his conscious mind so that the inner self could progress, without being watched at every moment.

This was given to me. I picked it up during the session, and it is a message to you from your other friend.

I hope I received it correctly. I was sure of the color but was not positive as to whether you were using it too heavily or not heavily enough. It was simply meant as friendly advice. Give us a moment.

(This effect appeared shortly before vacation, on an experimental head in oil I was working on. Brown was one of the colors used, and could have contributed to the undesirable purplish undertone in the flesh. The effect cropped up before I was aware of it. I cannot be positive the sepia caused the effect without trying some deliberate experiments to see, but certainly it contributed.

In any case, I hope the information was helpful.

Obviously I was with you occasionally during your vacation. I wish you a hearty good evening.

(10:46. Jane was again in a deep trance. I spoke to her and she came out okay. She said she felt “like the energy’s going through me.”