“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

You may tell Ruburt he has not lost his bright self, and it has gone nowhere.

Tell him to remember a poem, Rapunzel, that he wrote years ago. He just denied expression to his bright self. This evening’s poem did indeed contain, and was in itself, an intuitional inspiration.

It was a welcome to the spontaneous self, expressed creatively. The idea is an excellent one. A poetic statement carries weight for his personality, and this poetic statement has almost magical connotations. As natives do a dance to induce rain, with often excellent results, so Ruburt’s poem represents the same sort of incantation.

Now even in the case of hallucinations, the originator uses projections from his own physical structure, which he then perceives. Though the mind, or brain rather, may be seemingly passive in the case of the perceiver, the metabolism is quickened, for the body is using energy at a quickened rate.

Now. Ruburt was correct. He did not want to admit his own strong spontaneous nature. It has not gone anywhere. He need only strongly desire that it return, on his terms, and he will find it.

In his case he made alterations that severely prevented expression of spontaneity, in physical movement. To some extent this was meant to reassure him. When he realizes, and you can help him, that he is indeed safe, only when he trusts his spontaneity, then he will be free.

He is in the process of freeing himself, but the assurances from you can quicken the process considerably. The working schedule will help also, for as he sees the product of his spontaneity, he knows he can trust it. The body worked overtime in quelling spontaneity, and used needed reserves to maintain the symptoms. The same reserves, you see, can be used to construct images. When images of survival personalities appear, they must also utilize such properties.

I am not here in a physical materialization of myself. If I were, additional protein and chemical properties would be needed from Ruburt. In our sessions I usually bring additional energy with me, and Ruburt knows how to handle it. If you recall such earlier statements I made concerning the nature of his energy pattern, he is geared to handle high amounts of energy, and to use them.

That is why it took so much out of him to restrain his own energy. (Leaning forward, eyes open, humorous manner:) To force a lid on that pot was a job.

Now. The reason for his unrest yesterday and today is simple. A reaction. He was afraid that his spontaneous self had been swallowed in our sessions. The emotional reaction was rather natural, since our last session touched on some deep points.

Now we have hit something here, of importance. Give us a moment. (Pause.) Free arms, to him, represent abandonment, in the terms of giving into, freely and openly. He has been afraid of letting down completely. Now, he has not been aware of his fear of being suddenly released completely. The conscious knowledge will be of great help.

You can also help by reminding him that his safety does lie in spontaneity, and that joy will result from any complete and sudden release. In the past he did not want to accept his spontaneous nature because he felt he was not sufficiently disciplined or strong enough to control it, and he did not want to accept the responsibility for it.

It is not something to be controlled. It is something that will take its place with the other elements of his personality, merge with it, add its strength, and set up its own system of balances with other groupings of characteristics. These groupings balance themselves. Tell him this. There is no need to treat one characteristic as a stepchild.

(Smile.) His attention is not directed upon it. It would take me many hours to explain this. Now, if you want me to, I will devote the time... (Humorously.

We have one further note. Ruburt’s spontaneous nature is tolerant, sunny, quite natively good in his terms—qualities that he finds so difficult when he tries to manufacture them while denying spontaneity. I expect now a definite change for the better, and as soon as Ruburt is ready, then we will begin my book.

—and see if I can help Ruburt in some other ways during his sleep. I bid you good evening, however.

And have Ruburt read this session every morning for a week, before he begins his workday activities.