“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

He works out many problems through his work. This is natural for the personality. If he insists upon four to five hours a day of definite work, many of his problems will be solved at an intuitive level by him. The determination and energy necessary to do this will be an indication of improvement. It automatically provides the inner focus and concentration necessary. As you know, his presence in this chair (eyes open, Jane pointed to the Kennedy rocker in which she sat) at regular session time provides the same sort of concentration and focus in another direction.

Now, he is not afraid of me. He is afraid of the unknown. He is afraid of giving fully his abilities and commitment to what he does not thoroughly comprehend. There is an old religious hangover here from the Catholic background. Give us a moment.

(A one minute pause.) We have mentioned this earlier. In his mind religion was connected with self-mortification. On the one hand it set itself against spontaneity. The organized church feared it. On the other hand Ruburt was spontaneously religious.

Even the nuns to whom he read poetry distrusted his fervency, and took him to task. They distrusted the dramatic quality. The spontaneous elements of his nature, as you know, frightened him, since others gave him dire warnings as to possible consequences.

The daily working methods allow for the natural and periodic use and release of both aspects of the personality. The overcensuring, when it appears, shows itself, of course, in all spontaneous areas of his life—physical, psychic, creative and spiritual.

(Pause. Slow delivery here.) If he will maintain a daily work schedule—his need not be rigorous, but habitual—and if you will try to provide a warmly supportive role, as you have, then the situation can be largely remedied.

He looks to you to look out for him in psychic matters. He allows his spontaneity freedom in sessions because he knows that you will carry on for him those usual sensory characteristics that he temporarily dispenses with.

This is hardly unusual in such situations. Give us a moment. (Pause.) He distrusts the spontaneous which is so a part of his nature. As he worries occasionally about going too far when he is dancing, so he worries the same about the sessions—how far is spontaneity to be trusted, you see. Yet he must trust it, and when he does not do so the difficulties build.

Now in the past he felt that you also did not trust his spontaneity. The spontaneity has its own strength that will sustain him if he lets it. Your early (underlined) concern over spontaneous sessions frightened him.

Give us a moment. (Pause.) The shortage of sessions is a symptom of the fear of spontaneity. The fear of the unknown, mentioned earlier, is not a fear of psychic phenomena, nor of psychic endeavor. It is a mask, for a fear of his own spontaneity.

Now he was told under emotionally charged conditions, as you know, by his mother, that he could or would lose his mind. He tied this in with any strong spontaneous actions on his part, regardless of their nature. An example: once he found it thrilling to ride in an automobile at fast speeds. Now they frighten him. But to him any spontaneity carried the same danger that, say, speeding definitely does.

When he found himself so spontaneously involved he slowed down, literally. He is solving these problems at his own rate. That is the only way they will be solved.

Earlier the symptoms themselves masked the lack of spontaneity in writing. Now the symptoms are not so pronounced and the other problem, which was there, shows. His mother, for all her emotionalism, stressed intellectual control, contrasting it with the father’s lack of control. Ruburt is at the tail end of these inner problems that have been there in this life since childhood.

His problem is precisely this: the need and ability to throw himself whole-heartedly and spontaneously into a creative endeavor, and the fear of doing so.

A young man can misuse and misunderstand his own abilities if they are stronger than the other personality frameworks that compose his identity. Many of your own experiences have strengthened your abilities. Your experiences did not prevent you from using them—the abilities—any more than they helped you form them.

You could have chosen not to develop these latent abilities at all. You could have developed other latent abilities in their stead. You settled upon your particular life situation with certain problems and challenges in mind. In helping Ruburt free and use his own strong spontaneous nature, you also free your own spontaneous self. That particular problem then is also a challenge and a way of development for you both.

I had one note: his jumpy-roping is good for him, and he should continue. He should seek motion. Do you have further questions?