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He should begin to write. He should not read and reread endlessly notes that he has made, for as he begins to work he will find himself writing.

He works out many problems through his work. This is natural for the personality. If he insists upon four to five hours a day of definite work, many of his problems will be solved at an intuitive level by him. The determination and energy necessary to do this will be an indication of improvement. It automatically provides the inner focus and concentration necessary. As you know, his presence in this chair (eyes open, Jane pointed to the Kennedy rocker in which she sat) at regular session time provides the same sort of concentration and focus in another direction.

Now, he is not afraid of me. He is afraid of the unknown. He is afraid of giving fully his abilities and commitment to what he does not thoroughly comprehend. There is an old religious hangover here from the Catholic background. Give us a moment.

Even the nuns to whom he read poetry distrusted his fervency, and took him to task. They distrusted the dramatic quality. The spontaneous elements of his nature, as you know, frightened him, since others gave him dire warnings as to possible consequences.

He tried to slow down. The pent-up spontaneity helped make our sessions possible, and in one way or another will always erupt. Then, as you know, the opposite tendency began to show.

(Pause. Slow delivery here.) If he will maintain a daily work schedule—his need not be rigorous, but habitual—and if you will try to provide a warmly supportive role, as you have, then the situation can be largely remedied.

He looks to you to look out for him in psychic matters. He allows his spontaneity freedom in sessions because he knows that you will carry on for him those usual sensory characteristics that he temporarily dispenses with.

This is hardly unusual in such situations. Give us a moment. (Pause.) He distrusts the spontaneous which is so a part of his nature. As he worries occasionally about going too far when he is dancing, so he worries the same about the sessions—how far is spontaneity to be trusted, you see. Yet he must trust it, and when he does not do so the difficulties build.

Now in the past he felt that you also did not trust his spontaneity. The spontaneity has its own strength that will sustain him if he lets it. Your early (underlined) concern over spontaneous sessions frightened him.

He tried to be spontaneous and not spontaneous at the same time. Spontaneity itself has its own rhythm, with needed periods of rest that follow naturally. These natural rhythms are disrupted when such tampering occurs.

It was to some extent aggravated by books telling of the experience of various mediums, and by what he has read concerning the attitude of parapsychologists toward them. He projected these feelings then. They were adopted, for no one has treated him in that fashion.

Now he was told under emotionally charged conditions, as you know, by his mother, that he could or would lose his mind. He tied this in with any strong spontaneous actions on his part, regardless of their nature. An example: once he found it thrilling to ride in an automobile at fast speeds. Now they frighten him. But to him any spontaneity carried the same danger that, say, speeding definitely does.

When he found himself so spontaneously involved he slowed down, literally. He is solving these problems at his own rate. That is the only way they will be solved.

Personalities bent upon great endeavors often set themselves great problems. The problems are not meaningless. They are like examinations. (Long pause.) In Ruburt’s situation in the present, he is in your terms, freeing himself. He has just been through one of the most difficult problems that he set for himself.

The next one will be to use the abilities that he will then be free to use, correctly. Without the past challenge, or one like it, the various elements of the personality would not be sufficiently united, strong enough, to carry the abilities that have been latent within it.

I had one note: his jumpy-roping is good for him, and he should continue. He should seek motion. Do you have further questions?