“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

The daily working methods allow for the natural and periodic use and release of both aspects of the personality. The overcensuring, when it appears, shows itself, of course, in all spontaneous areas of his life—physical, psychic, creative and spiritual.

The pent-up spontaneity, too long restrained, then latches upon normal low periods when the personality is tired, and comes out as strong discouragement, feelings of desolation, aggravating normal low periods. It can turn a minor annoyance into anger for example; a rainy day into a creative disaster.

His problem is precisely this: the need and ability to throw himself whole-heartedly and spontaneously into a creative endeavor, and the fear of doing so.

(10:45. Jane came out of trance easily, though it had been a fairly good one, she said. Break time found me very discouraged. I was angry and disappointed; I was fearful that Jane and I would never be able to rise above our problems and fulfill our potentialities, which I knew to be excellent. I was especially concerned that Jane wouldn’t be able to surmount the problems, so explicitly delineated by Seth, above, and so eliminate the symptoms. I couldn’t see how she would be able to really give her great creative spontaneity full reign, to accomplish the things I felt she had in her.

The stresses and strains also create the unbalances that initiate creative endeavor. On Ruburt’s part the early religious experiences also initiated the deep quest for inner knowledge that is behind all creative endeavor, and that served as an impetus.