“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(To me:) Because you are so drawn to Ruburt, there is the struggle to actualize your emotions toward him in daily life. This of course superimposed on your early fear of emotionalism in this life. Part of your artistic impetus does come from this inhibited emotion, but fresh impetus is received when the emotion is allowed to go outward toward Ruburt; and through Ruburt, acting as a symbol to you, to the world at large.

Now in many ways this applies to Ruburt also. The two of you seek refreshment together, then plunge into your inner realities. He is more emotionally attuned than you, in that it is easier for him, when coming out of his private world, to rush toward you with spontaneity. You are both equally dependent however, basically, on this necessary emotional refreshment. You both drink it in, and it sustains you for some period. It is used in your work, and in your joint work. It forms an inner framework of which you are sometimes aware. (Smile.) Without your feeling toward Ruburt and the resulting urge to emotionally actualize yourself to another personality, your background could have prevented even artistic development. (Pause.) Rather than serve as a springboard for creativity.